JuZbEiNgMe

when friendship turns UGLY

2010-03-31T09:20:00.006+08:00

quick updatesssss.........grandma has been admitted in the hospital since last fri.....

tkle balik....doc step nak uat test ni test tu....abe conclusion pon tkde.....mcm sial...

kesian nenek aku.....kene cucuk tang sini cucuk tang situ......

AND....e71 masok air!!!!!!!!!!!!da tkle on.....haiz...nasib2....

camner le masok air???ishk.....hahahahaha....

nak bukak sluar dlm toilet....leh luper la plak hp dalam kocek.....

bukak sluar tul2 tepi baldi.....ape lagi...kelepup....masok la hpku ke dlm....

sekian la criter...nak nangis...tk nangis plak.....

1st TIME HP MASOK AIR KATEKAN....hehehehehehe

back to today's topic........

its quite random...but i wanna talk about friendship....ya ya ya....boring la.........

i know...but i still need to blog......bear with me k sweethearts....

it doesn't happen to me....but you will never know if you're next.....

its hard to find true friends nowadays....esp those innocent looking ones.......

they will backstab you real hard.....slowly...

few pointers to know that SHE'S NOT A FRIEND

she will sae she will be there for you when times are bad.....BUT disappear when you need her
when she start to flirt in front of your man and trying to get attention....BUT always deny when questioned
telling you to trust her and make you share your secrets....BUT she backstab you in the back by telling all your secrets to other friends whom you hate
making you fight with your bf/husband/fiance whenever there is a chance....
she will always try to advice when you are having problems BUT ended up making it worse for you
whenever you find someone to date and love you and sumone you fancy alot..she will sae "ala..jantan tu aku kenal..suke maenkan perasaan pompuan...kao baik tkmo kluar ngan dier lagi..nnti kao kene maen blakang......BUT she's dating the guy behind your back
when you caught her red handed talking bad about you behind your back
when you notice she's getting closer and closer to the ones you hate and they know what you are talking abt them (esp those secrets tat you told her abt them)

this are jus a few points...there maybe more but i jus cant think of it yet....

there is a true story tat happened to a friend of mine...lets call her A.....and her so called friend B
but this story is nothing abt B stealing A bf or watnots...and not forgetting a friend name C..its jus BETRAYAL...(A/B/C know each other btw..GOOD FRIENDS)There is 3 parts...make sure you read carefully..if not...U WILL GET CONFUSE..like me....hehehe

LET ME SAY THIS 1ST...THE STORY IM GOING TO TELL MAY HAVE SOME POINTS THAT ARE MISINTERPRET.....I MAY SAE IT WRONGLY.....I DUN REMEMBER EVERY DETAILS OF THEIR CONVERSATION

PART 1

A was the kind who listens to those who have problems and ppl feels comfortable to talk to her and its not surprising tat B also confide in her about her marriage problem...how her husband cheated on her..beating her and his attitude problem...
A..being a nice friend...always gave advice and it will be up to B whether she will heed A's advice
B...also being a friend of mine....shares her stories with me tooo.....i..on the other hand...not a good advisor...but did give some good advices to her tooo......we knew her problems....but think nothing much of it...coz we knew B is a strong lady....BUT KNEW NOTHING ABT HER BIG EGO

the story goes...B decided to get a divorce.....she's serious this time...y i said that?she did sae abt divorce before but they usually compromise and divorce didnt happen....
but this tyme ard.....ITS SERIOUS....
B...called A....crying and telling her shits like this is goin to be my last call....thanks for being there for me..i wont be seeing u animore..bla bla bla...some emo sentences.....
and B called me tooo saeing all this.......i was quite shocked at first and didnt think much abt it...maybe i thought she had a fight and when u're angry and sad...you may said things that you never meant to say....I called A and she said she was talking to B...i was telling A to tell B to be strong no matter wat happen...but at the point of tyme i didnt know B was getting divorce until A told me......COMPLICATING..ya..this kind of stories always complicated others....
aniway...back to the story....
A..knowing abt this....was quite worried...given the fact that they were close and A regard B as her good friend....B tells her everything...y it happen...what happen...
CASE CLOSED

PART 2

Next day...A and friends were out(and this friends know B/C too).......

then they saw C's husband with another gerl....
A....called B telling her abt this...coz she trust B soo much.....
and to A's surprise...she told C abt her husband's affair AND said A is the one who saw her husband.......
C called A asking her and A..denied...
A was in denial.....she know that if she said yes...C's marriage will be on the rocks....
and if she said no....means A cheating on C......
when A ask B whether she is the one who tell C...B said no.....
and that was it...
C settle her matters with her husband and everything is oK
CASE CLOSED

PART3
B called C the next day brainwashing C......
saeing that A saw C's husband and A deny seeing him..
C called A again and thats when their friendship turn sour...
C accuse A of being not a fren by not telling her abt this....
and when A ask B again abt this..she said YES..she's the one who told C....
when asked y....."aku da tknk cover ass org...asyek nak kene subahat"......
and now because of B....A's friendship with B/C is not that close animore..like before....
B is also accusing A because her marriage fails...
coz maybe C or B sms her saeing pasal kao da 2 rumahtangga runtuh......
and the problem is..she is not the only one who saw..there were others too..but she's aiming it at A......(not sure y)
maybe it was A's mistake by calling B.........telling her abt this...
B called A saeing that they(b/c) wants to meet her and they actually make their trip all the way to A's house.....and i advice A not to see them...org tengah marah...mcm2 le jadi....
so A's bf volunteer to help....
thats the end...im not sure what happen after tat
CASE NOT CLOSED

After this incident...A's true colours shown BRIGHTLY...
A treated her more than jus a good friend...they were close..B always call A to talk to her..go clubs together...always there for each other....they were always happy when they get to meet....
I am not sure what is A's motive of trying to tear their friendship apart...
if i am in A's position....i would feel the same way...
u r accusing me of something that i am not a part of...
like breaking up your family...
if they were to think back...
A's marriage - it fails because she said that she couldn't take her husband's attitude animore..that is y she decided to end it....AND SHE BLAME A
B's marriage - it was caused by a third and they actually had compromise..everything was ok until A brainwashed her......AND SHE BLAME A

the moral is....never be nice to anione....you never knoe what they are capable of doing.....

updates : she deleted me and few friends from her fb....when asked..she said she dun wan to get involve with her EX-HUSBAND's circle of friends...ya...khai is her husband's friend...so i get to knoe her from there...
if thats the case....i respect her desicion.....i am not blaming anione for this mishap....it is a way of humans...i came to accept the terms....there are different kind of people.....you jus have to meet one and experience it.........

2010-03-22T14:02:00.003+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS to AZRAH & FAUZI...

semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu yer....

hehehe.....happy banget tengok korang nie...walaopon tk rapat.......hehehehehe

then...proceed bowling....with gugu n hera...lamer giler tk maen bowling

asyek longkang jeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....stress seh....

tengok ar scoreboard!!!!geram jek eh...baru maen 2 game.....da menyumpah2.....sabar fara....
abeh....kasot bacin sak....stocking da bau wangi trus bau busuk giler nyer....
next tyme nak kene belik stocking disposal......wear n throw...tkya susah2 amek toilet paper wrap stocking...ehehehehehehe

waiting for more weekends to come..........
tapi nak kene wait long2 la...pasal.....ITS ONLY MONDAY TODAY!!!!!
KNS

2010-03-18T16:15:00.012+08:00

elo elo elo
niari tk werk..perut sakit seh..
aku lao uzur...rabak...sampai nangis2....skrg nie pon da kurang kit....
since boring...aku tengok criter ADNAN SEMPIT...tk jelak pe aku tengok...
da byk kali aku repeat...giler otak tul la...

saje2 nak share pat sini..ader 9 PART....hehehehehehe....
njoy....

I DUN WAN BANANA FRUIT 2 TIMES....

DIMANA ADA KEMAMPUAN DI SITU ADER HGHWAY

2010-03-17T11:01:00.001+08:00

wa wa wa......

byk bende nak bobual nie.....

tapi tk tau maner nak start...

skrg plak ngah keje....skali le teringat la plak nak blog....

curi tulang.........

ssshhhh....jgn bilang org........

boss padahal ngah pat blakang...hauhuahuahuhauha....

nak kene step bz je nie....type2....

mesti dier ngah pikir...rajin tul pekerja aku nie....

hauhuahuhauha..check2....ngah bikin bende laen...

k la....kiter start....

yg buat aku pening kepale nie kan....

pasal JACK NEO.....

padahal aku admire dier sak....

bukan pasal dier hensem....pasal criter2 dier ader yg klakar2....

mcm byk gitu aku tengok news yg pasal scandal....

suke sgt pe dorang...da ader anak bini pon maseh nak carik laen

ala...biasela kan..lelaki...

aku tulis pasal dekni....sebabnyer...aku terbace suratkhabar...

sumernyer pasal 1 pompuan nie...

aku tk tau ar nak kasi dier thumbs up or nak kasi dier pelempang jeee....

i dun reli know the actual story...

yg aku tau ni pompuan g umah JACK pasal nak confront...

skali dier panggil press skali.....

lepas tu makin ramai pompuan2 yg mengaku tat JACK penah goda dorang...

hehehehehe.....

lao aku kan.....biarla prangai sial dier tu....

at least korang tk kasi dier main kao pe(tk tau la kan)....

gatal..nafsu....tu kan lelaki...

pompuan pon same....jgn ckp korang nie PURRFECT sangat....

aku penah dengar kan....

pompuan nafsu 9 otak 1...hehehehehehe.....

check2...korang da layan dier atas katil...

pas tu dier nak tglkan kao...atau tk kasi kao duit yg kao mintak keee....

tu pasal kao sabo dier...kasi dier malu...

aku bukan nak side sape2 la kan...

pade aku...takde yg btul2....sumer salah....

lao lelaki tk menggatal..abe pompuan tk miang...nie sumer tkkan terjadi...

slalunyer...biler lelaki da tknak layan lagi....nnti pompuan2 nie sumer start la..

lagi2 lao ngan celebriti2....yg duit belambak2....

kasi malu la...tuntut hak la....

come on....its 2010.....

korang yg menggatal korang la bodoh.....

yg aku tkle tahan tengok yg pasal press conference dier....

aku ingat kan lao press conf lamer..skali dier nyer tk sampai 5 min pe...

aku confident bukan dorang je prangai gini....

ader jgk yg laen....tk kire la celebriti ke....org biase keee

sumer nafsu kuda....

1 tk cukup nak kene belambak2.....

konek mcm nak potong jeee....

da la....actually nak sambung pasal bini dier....

tkya la.....mls nak bobual pasal dorang lagi..hehehehehe

sendiri nak bobual pasal dorang sendiri yg frust.....

bukan frust pasal ape...nnti tk pasal2 dier da tk uat movie2 lagi..haiz...

sayang...

yg next aku nak bobual..
last weekend we went to BATAM...for a short getaway....
family aku...abg n family....hera abu..hehehe and ary n wife...tk terluper KHAI
kirekan....aku tk byk shopping...tapi byk mkn...
and BTW...aku da naek 4 KILO ehk....
dasyat...1st tyme aku dpt weight gitu mcm....
FISH HEAD tul la...
tapi tkpe...aku ngah strick diet nie....
nak kene stay away from nasi2 da sewaktu dengan nyer.....
nie tyme KARAOKE....gelap jeeee

nie biler part baru sampai....g mkn....dlm ramai2...aku sorang je ngah lantak ehk...
hehehehe....c wat im eating...RICE
sneak peek....bilik tido nyer....
nie...baru touch down....

hehehehe....kiter stay pat harmoni apartment...
yg klakarnyer....yg harmoni nie...ader 2 jenis...
satu hotel..lagi satu apartment...
and their places are sooooo far apart...
bukan sbelah2 ehk...
kiter plak.....ngan confidentnyer nak g check in pat harmoni hotel...
yg staff2 slenger nie bukkan nyer nak bilang ader 2 jenis hotel....
lamer sak tunggu nak check in pasal dorang ckp mama nyer name tkde...
yg mama plak book hotel online tapi tk print surat2 bukti...
aku da stress sak biler part dorang ckp..
name ibu ngak ada di sini....
mama ckp ...saya udah bayar...

dorang check2 lagi....
skali check2.....HARMONI APARTMENT ehk...
ingatkan le jln kaki..
skali dorang ckp jauh seh...babi tul...
then we checked in...FINALLY....
i slpt with my parents..khai tido pat living room....
the other apartment...overcrowded kit....
hehehehe...
then malamnyer...since da penat...and tkde nite activities...
we...yg mude2 nie....g lantak minumam keras...
tapikan...aku cumer minom 2 sips je....
maner la aku suker sgt...
abe khai pon tk minom trus....heheheh
mcm angel seh!!.....hehehehe
tu je la activiti di mlm hari...sumer da kepenatan...

hehehehe......
ok la....OVERALL...PENAT and FUN!!!

lao nak g batam with family...aku recommend tat hotel...
but they sae tat hotel is haunted...
ntah la tul ke tak..
pasal mlmnyer aku tido ok jeee....
jln pat corridor mlm2 sorang2 tkde pape pon...
mandi mlm2 sorang2 pon maseh ok..
skrg boleh la ckp ok..pasal tk kene...
cube lao terkene...MELALAK jgk...
cume 1 je bikin spoil......

BREAKFAST....RABAK.......

2010-03-11T13:11:00.000+08:00

wahla...hehehe..its daddy's big 50 BDAE!!!

celebrated with my mum grandparents...brothers...sis in law..fiance and bro's gf....

we surprised our dad with a cake and of course....a bdae gift....

its a bicycle....

(basikal pon le mahal nak mampus)

nasib baik basikal le masok bonnet teksi..

lao tk..nak kene tolak sampai umah...hehehe..

all in all...im glad we could give something to my dad on his bdae....

something we know that will benefit him....

basikal dier tayar bocor..tu pasal we plan to get him a new one...

basikal pon ader diff sizes...laen size laen harga plak tu

lao size s da mahal..ape lagi size yg besar2...mampus....

we bought him size s..tu pon nak kene jengkit..(spelling cam salah je)...

aniwae...

wanna wish him a great bdae..

may all his wishes come true.....

and may he receive happiness always

amin

2010-03-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

y is it that everytyme they made mistakes...they would always find excuses to blame others....

i sometymes do that too...without realising that im blaming others for my own stupid mistakes....

yes..i admit that....fucking attitude of mine....i know how it feels being blamed for other's stupidity as im a victim myself and im trying real hard to change that.....i always telll myself...y do these things happen?is it because i did not do it right??

like for example i did not put my keys properly in my pocket and without realising it dropped in the car....then when i realised its gone...i managed to ask my fren for help and he/she make the effort to search for it....but then she could not find aniting....you get fed up and blamed ur fren for losing ur keys...now tell me me....is it a right move?if you have placed ur keys properly..u wouldnt have lost it in the 1st place....(this is jus an example..im not that pathetic in blaming sumone else for that kind of mistakes)........i know sum ppl do....they jus blame you..and when u try to reason out....they keep attacking you with words that are real harsh.....

its kinda sad looking at this ppl who thinks they are sooo perfect...like as if they dun make any mistakes in life...they will jus twist and turn the stories to make it sound like its other party's fault....PATHETIC...yap2....hey mind you....im changing....trying real hard....

after becoming sumone's else victim...i came to realise that blaming others wont help solve aniting...you will jus get into bigger fights.....more enemies....hurting sumone u care....and lotsa things.....

its never too late to change....its good to realise your own mistakes...make an effort to change....believe me....it will benefit alot of ppl....esp someone who cares abt you....

been there done that kind of theory.....i've been thru in that kind of situation and its hard to get out from there....its only you who can change urself...not others...

remember this...dun ever ever try to change sumone else if you have not changed yours....reflect urself in the mirror 1st....thats always the best..........

2010-03-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

lawa kan si siak nie....haiz

babyluv is werking tonite.....kesian dier...penat bekeje.....

takpe...kiter endure je la for the tyme being....

susah2 dulu.....but tkmo over sgt...nak kene byk rest jgk....nnti da sakit susah la...

save byk2...cam nak giler..pas tu duit ilang cam gtu jeeee.........

mesti ku nangis...hehehehe...pasal duit dabez....

tapi tkpe...at least duit tu is use wisely.....tk merepek2...

mcm skejap gitu da bulan 3....tk lamer lagi da 2 tahun....

mcm maner aku nk stay away from parents aku..

skrg mmg la tk rase pape2 sgt..ari2 balik lbt....

tapi balik lbt pon tetap balik umah parents aku...nnti lao da kawin....tk balik sane lagi...

mesti aku rindu dorang giler babi...

skrg aku nak try balik siang pon susah...

tkde comment la....

asal la manusia ni sumer suka nah take advantage??

biler da kasi tgl ngan mak bapak...tknk balik umah la..lari umah la....buat hal la....benci mak bapak la...

biler da tgl jauh from them,baru nak rase rindu la....nangis la....

maybe it is jus human nature....da tkle lari....

kla...nk bobok...

besok2 kiter sambung lagi k....

muamuamuamua....

2010-03-06T03:50:00.000+08:00

cant sleeep now..jus came back.....its already cuming to 4 am....

asal la nak kene balik pagi2??tk paham r.....

biler pat luar...tyme2 gini da ngantuk..menguap 200 kali pe...

part da smpai umah...ngantuk sumer ilang....mcm sial.....

skrg ngah tk tau ape nak bikin....

atuk is now getting more n more sick....

makin tgl tulang.....yg doctor2 musibat nie asyek ckp nk kene operate...tapikan tk baik je aku tengok...maki sakit ader la....dier da la tkde isi...abe korang suke2 potong isi ni isi tu...

actually lao boleh aku nak spent tyme nga family....

susah ar....lao ckp ngan org degil nie mmg susah....ckp ngn org bodoh lagi senang...

ku da ckp nak balik siang2 ari2....tetap antar aku lbt.....

da naek berbuih sak mulut aku....

boleh jadi gaduh lao aku nak balik siang.....

aku reli hope aku tk lose atuk....

lao ape2 jadi pat atuk aku n im nt there to help....aku mesti salahkan dier....

ape nk jadi jadi ar.....

lets pray for his health...AMIN

2010-03-03T02:48:00.000+08:00

booyah!!hahahaha...da lamer pe tk masok sini...

amaciam sumer??sihat??

ok2...slight updates.....IM ENGAGED!!!...hauhuahhauhuahuha

cam klakar gitu....but its true bebey....

thanks for all those who had attended....and i'll make sure all my frens are invited for my BIG DAY...hehehehe

im hoping for a better future...and hope he's the man im waiting for....

*prays hard*...hehehehe

i promise i'll update regularly....

insyallah....hehehhee......

gambar da ader but i lom upload2 lagi...

lagging ar....nak upload pat fb pon lembab....

mls nak tunggu.....

i'll try my best k....jus wait..i'll update again once upload....

ader sneak preview je...hehehe...curik from my mum's fb....

jeng jeng jeng

i came across this joke and i thought its a JOKE...hehehe...

for me its joke but maybe for u its lame...hehehe...k la...pat keje nie update blog...

update again k

One truck driver was doing his usual delivery to IMH.
He discovered a flat tyre when he was about to go home after unloading the stuff.
He jacked up the truck and took the flat tyre down.
When he was about to fix on the new tyre, he accidentally dropped all the bolts into the drain.
The truck driver was very sad as he can't fished the bolts up; started to panick.
Coincidentally, one patient walk past and asked the driver what happened.
The driver thought to himself, since there's nothing much he can do, he told the patient the whole incident.
The patient nonchantly replied: "can't even fix such a simple problem...no wonder you are destined to be a truck driver..." he goes on explaining: "You just have to take one bolt each from the other 3 tyres and fix it onto this tyre. Drive to the nearest workshop and replace the missing ones"
The driver was very impressed and asked "You're so smart but why do you stay in IMH?"
Patient replied: "I stay here because I'm crazy not STUPID!".

2009-12-04T13:03:00.000+08:00

are life after marriage that boring??

its just a random question that suddenly pop out in my mind...

what will happen to us when we are old...

will he still love me like always or...

i tink alot of u ladies/guys out there have this qns also....

im scared to get married...

will my mum be there for me when i need her?

will i get presents from my parents when its my bdae...or mini celebration at home with my family...

will i be fat if i were to give birth(insyallah lao ader rezeki)?

will he leave me for a younger and beautiful gerl if im fat old and ugly?

what will happen???

will i cry and run home to my parents?or accept the fate from GOD....

I cant imagine if all this happen to me...

i knoe im imagining too much..but IT WILL HAPPEN RIGHT?

have trust and faith fara!!!.....

if he love u...he will love u till u die...(hmm..tul kee??)

what will happen if we fight and live in the same house?

will we fight over the remote control if we only have 1 tv?

will he be buying dinner and eat all by himself or will i just cook my share while he starve?

will we slp in different rooms?(if it was a 3 room flat...)

will he leave me all alone and run to a different lady who understand him more?

SO BLOODY SCARY..cant imagine he's doing it to me

like now...still boifren/gerlfren...fight only switch off hp...

dun wan to tok...dun see your face coz we are living separately...

hahahaha....

pujuk sini pujuk sane.....

so many qns so little tyme...

im not sure if im getting married in near future...

i love to get married and share the life with someone loved...

but all this qns kip playing in my mind...

who to ask?

parents?hmm....

friends?will they entertain me?hehehehehehe....

relatives?nah...

siblings?nnti kasi answer mepek2...hahahahaha

lets all pray together for a better life with our choosen husbands/wifes...

AMIN

2009-11-24T14:54:00.000+08:00

Why two young friends committed suicide together
21 Nov 2009
Source: The Straits Times

The pair were close friends who led troubled lives. They had different problems.
She was facing a theft charge and was afraid she would be sent to a girls’ home. He had been caught for having sex with an underaged girl.In the end, in what the coroner called “a very sad and unfortunate case”, they chose a horrendous way out of their troubles.Together, they leapt to their deaths on 30 Sep last year.

At about noon that day, the bodies of Mernel Koh Min Er, 15, and Eddy Effendy, 22, were found at the foot of Block 127, Bukit Batok West Avenue 6.In a joint inquiry yesterday, State Coroner Victor Yeo ruled their deaths as suicide.The pair were believed to have jumped from the staircase landing between the ninth and 10th floor of the block.Eight suicide notes were found in each of their bags.Wanted to clarifyWorried that they would be mistaken as a couple after dying together, they even addressed one of the notes to the police and media.In the note, they mentioned that they were in relationships with other people and were facing different problems.The court heard that Mernel, a Secondary 2 student at Fairfield Methodist Secondary, was supposed to turn up at the Juvenile Court at 9.30am that day.The investigating officer, Station Inspector Teo Teck Heng, said the girl had been arrested in August 2006 for shoplifting.Mernel was placed in a six-month Guidance Programme, but she breached the programme twice and ended up being charged in court.She was to be sentenced on the day she died.In a suicide note to her mother, she wrote that she had no choice as she did not want to be sent to a girls’ home.She asked that her ashes be kept at her mother’s place. The teenager also wanted a very nice coffin and asked for everything, including the flowers, to be in pink.Mernel’s parents were having relationship problems at that time and her mother had moved out to a rental unit. The girl lived with her father and younger brother in Bukit Batok.The court heard that no one had told Mernel she would be sent to a girls’ home and she had come to that conclusion on her own.

Eddy, an Indonesian who was studying at a private school here, was a close friend of Mernel, who had considered him her “godfather”.He had problems of his own. Before he died, he wrote eight letters addressed to his family and friends.In a letter to his parents, he confessed to having sex with an underaged girl and was afraid that they would find out.The girl’s uncle had found out about it and her family wanted to meet his parents to talk about the matter.Eddy agreed to arrange for them to meet on 1 Oct last year. He was earlier involved in a confrontation with the girl’s uncle, which involved physical violence.But the young man could not muster the courage to tell his parents.He had previously had sex with another underaged girl. When his parents found out, his father had hit him.Eddy’s parents live in Indonesia while he lived in Singapore with his elder sister. Their mother often visited them.Eddy also apologised to Mernel’s mother in one of his suicide notes. He said he was sorry he could not take her daughter home as he had his own problems and had decided to die with Mernel.

Police investigations showed that two days before their deaths, Mernel and Eddy had told a mutual friend that they wanted to end their lives.A wooden stool, two pairs of slippers and a plastic bag containing a yellowish substance, believed to be glue, were found at the staircase landing on the ninth and 10th floor of the block that the pair had jumped from.Tube of glueOn the wall next to the stool were some pencil scribblings believed to have been written by Eddy. It read: “You (name of girl’s uncle) force me (eddy) to jump”.A tube of glue and glue wrapper were also found between the seventh and eighth-floor staircase landing.Both Mernel and Eddy’s toxicology report suggested that they had sniffed glue before their deaths.The court heard that Mernel had been arrested twice previously for inhalant abuse (glue-sniffing) but was not charged.In his findings, Mr Yeo said death was not a punishment that Mernel and Eddy should have inflicted on themselves.“This is a very sad and unfortunate case where two very young people chose to end their lives instead of facing up to their problems,” Mr Yeo added.“There is room for compassion in the law and forgiveness in the hearts of loved ones.”Mernel and Eddy’s families did not attend the inquiry yesterday.

Who is to be blame in this kind of situation?

I feel sorry for the gerl especially..she's soooo pretty and young..

but she chose to end her life just because she's scared of being in a gerl's home?

i reli do pity her...i too once wanted to end my life..but im glad i have friends and aunt that i can count on...if not....i'll regret doing that...

2009-11-24T10:13:00.000+08:00

i had been doing alot of thinking lately and it seems that i still dun have any desicions made..

am i doing the right thing?or am i not?

its so sad seeing this kind of things happening to our ownself...

now i realised how they felt..human nature...after we experienced it ourself then we know the impact...

cruelty....tats the only thing i have in my mind now...tats the only word that i could describe

i tried to prevent but God is fair...

i have no strength to go on...thinking abt all this...ppl are telling me to let but some are asking me to not to...

the desicion has to be made...and im confuse...

wat will happen or wat is going to happen after that...

am i gonna lead a new life?or the same old life tat i had....

im hoping for a miracle....

I want this badly but the surrounding around me is not giving me a chance...

i can imagine the disappointment in their eyes and the hatred in their heart...

how am i going to live like this...

i wanna be happy...but im not selfish...

im always thinking abt others..making them happy and tried very hard not to break their heart..

i knoe they do think abt me too...

i dun wanna think abt this but i have too

the choice is in my hand...

but i dun wanna make the choice....can sumone else make the desicion for me??

PLSSS...somebody...

if only i have the support of those ppl...

then i will be the happiest person alive...

IF ONLY

KNOCK ME IN THE HEAD..WAKE UP!!

DESICION HAS TO BE MADE SOON...

ok2....

have u ever wonder wats its like to be free??

free from everything..

all the desicions are yours...

KAN BEST GITU.....!!!

2009-11-16T13:56:00.000+08:00

baby's down with sore eyes..n..tk lamer lagi aku plak la nie...

asyek tengok muke bacin dier je...hehehehehe

congrats to kathy who had jus given birth to a baby gerl...

n to feat for getting hitch next month...19 dec gerl...

its gonna b fast babe....

n to those who are pregnant....jage diri baik2....tk kire 1st ke 2nd child ke...its still ur precious..

tkmo lari2..lompat2...hahahaha....

yg lom kawin cam aku....hmm....waiting for ur cards darlingz...

da cukup duit....da sayang each other cam nak giler..ape tunggu lagi..kawin laaaaa....

tkkan nak tunggu aku kawin plak kan...

lambat laaaa........

aniwae...dpt hp baru!!!E71....

butang picit2 punyer la kecik2...

jari2 aku da la besar besau...hahaha...nak tekan seksa....

but i loike...!!...THANKS DAD..

bapak aku la kasi....mak aku pon dpt...same colour plak tu..

da mcm boriah.....

ok...let me think of what to update...

nak sgt bukak blog balik abez tk tau nak update ape...

muahz

2009-11-02T13:20:00.000+08:00

31st OctoBer 2009 *Dinner*

im back!!
but!!!i still haf not finished renovating...
still alot more to go....mls pe...nak tukar ni nak tukar tu..
so the most important stuff to do right now is to blog
i wanna congratulate watie for her marriage..
da kawin kawan aku nie...
went to her dinner and sanding dier....
sad to say aku lbt on sunday pasal tertido la....*sorry watie!*
at least aku dpt jgk jumper dier sbelum g umah lelaki...
biler agaknyer aku nyer turn??
k2..enuf said....
aku curik gambar...tanks to HAZRINA...hahahaha

01 November 2009 - e reception

yg pengantin baju biru tu kakaknyer...sanding skali....aww...so swit!!

2009-07-29T12:18:00.000+08:00

so freaking mad with mr bf!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-24T12:03:00.000+08:00

one has never been there when i need him the most

the other one will only look for me when he needed help....

whu im talking abt???my brothers....

the elder is married to this ^*^&%*%$$ lady whom i hate...

the younger is attached to this gerl whom everyone likes...

y am i talking abt them???

maybe its because of the pictures i've seen

celebrating the younger's gf bdae........

everione is there....cuzs....brothers n the *%^&%*&% lady....

n..not surprisingly..i was not there...not even an invitation...

tis is not the first tyme....when they went to bangkok...they practically ask everyone to join them but not me...

if they hate me then dun bother askin me how i've been when u see me...

dun act gud infront of me..i hate tat kind of people...

y do they hate me soo much?

is it because they hate my bf?

come on..there's this thing called respect other's decision

i was never against any of ur relationship brothers....not even one..

i mixed with them when they came to visit for the 1st tyme....

ala...step malu2 la biler nak jumper family....

never did i complaint abt them....

but y is it so hard to accept my man??

is he bad??did u ever gave him any chance to talk to u?

maybe its not him...

coz u haf been treating me this way since the past..since u're married....

if she hate me...does it mean u haf to hate me tooo??

i realli dun give a fucking shit abt all this...

y m i being so emotional abt this??

ppl claim tat its your wife tat makes u change...but never once i agree...

but maybe its true....u weren't like this the last tyme....

as for my younger bro...wherever i go to places...never once i forget to buy him sumting...

i owaes luv him...but the way he's always siding with my elder..makes me hate him...

childish??nah..i've been tolerating this for a long tyme....

i cant take another disappointment in life...i had too much of it...

y do u bother asking me for help when u haf ur elder bro by ur side?

he's always asking u out and taking u to places....not me....

so to both of u....dun act gud in front of me...coz i knoe..u're not.....
even when they sae..come on..they're still ur brothers...

yes they are....but the way they treated me...makes me lose them...in my heart...

2009-07-22T13:38:00.000+08:00

PUKIMAK KAO LA SIAL!!!

AAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHH

2009-07-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

don't ever ask wat happen to my bike...

i dun wan to talk abt it..i dun even wan to tink abt it...

bf is down with fever...and i haf nooo mood to thrash abt aniting

PERIOD.

2009-07-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 50th YEARS ANNIVERSARY!!

lamer kan.....how i admire their long term commitments...
will i be able to hold on this long??
but for my nenek n atuk....they are always together these years..
my atuk will always be there for nenek eventhoug he's weak...
amek nenek after religious class.....teman nenek g clinic...
his love for nenek is......WOW....

hope u gonna stay strong like always...
i luv u atuk..n of coz nenek tooo........
no one can ever replace u in my heart....

muaHz

2009-07-03T16:03:00.000+08:00

MJ...i miss u soo much

2009-07-02T13:15:00.000+08:00

introducing......the anak sedare...hahahaha....

nyanyi pandai......suro tulis bird pon susah....

2009-06-30T13:42:00.000+08:00

the only word i could think of

DISAPPOINTMENT..

p/s : hey boi..no matter how badly we fight....i will owaes luv u....n bb......

2009-06-23T07:35:00.000+08:00

its sad when he dont understand u

its sad when he don't trust u

its sad when ur family don't trust u

all the lies u told them jus bcoz u haf no choice...

y???

how can a person be with another person when that person dont even trust the other person?

how can a person be happy when that person dont even understand the other person's needs?

eventhough u r with that person for a long long long time...tat person may not be the one u settle down with...

sum ppl sometymes threatened u if u decided to leave him...

tat is y ladies esp choose to continue on with the relationship rather than making their familys disappointed in them again.....

sometymes u do things jus because u wan to make that person happy...even if u're not

i tell myself to prepare after marriage coz tats when the nightmare starts..

it sounds scary but i am left with no choice...

its my fate and i haf no regrets....

i wan to sae sorry to my family esp my grandparents for not being there when they need me the most...i tried.....its not tat i dun try...

but even if i sae tat u wun believe me coz 90% of the tyme im lying..n i knoe u knoe...

i dun blame u guys for not believing..but it hurts..alot....

and to all my friends...hope u found sumone whu would understand n trust u..not the type u would want to destroy u....

2009-06-18T08:27:00.000+08:00

Suami hantu

KUANTAN: Angkara cemburu, seorang suri rumah berusia 32 tahun mendakwa diperlakukan seperti haiwan apabila kaki dan tangannya diikat sebelum badannya dibelasah suami sendiri, seorang peniaga kecil di rumah mereka di Bukit Setongkol di sini, Sabtu lalu.Si suami dipercayai seorang yang cepat panas baran, sebelum itu membuat tuduhan melulu dengan mendakwa wanita berkenaan mempunyai hubungan sulit dengan bapa saudara lelaki terbabit.Berikutan kejadian itu, mangsa cedera di seluruh badan selepas diseksa termasuk kepala dihentak ke dinding selain diugut bunuh lelaki berusia 41 tahun itu sepanjang dikurung tiga hari.Difahamkan, kejadian itu berlaku apabila mangsa cuba mempertahankan diri dan menafikan melakukan hubungan sulit seperti didakwa, namun suaminya yang berang enggan mempercayainya sebelum menyeksa wanita berkenaan.

Mangsa diseksa selepas pakaiannya ditanggalkan sebelum dipukul dalam keadaan hanya memakai pakaian dalam. Tidak cukup dengan itu, lelaki terbabit kemudian mengarahkan anak lelakinya berusia 14 tahun yang juga anak tiri mangsa, mengambil tali untuk mengikat tangan dan kaki mangsa.

Dua lagi anak pasangan itu, masing-masing seorang lelaki berusia lima tahun dan perempuan berusia tiga tahun, hanya mampu menangis selepas diberi amaran supaya diam.Bagaimanapun, mangsa berpeluang membebaskan diri apabila suaminya tidur dan membuka ikatan pada kakinya, kira-kira jam 4.30 pagi kelmarin.Lebih menyedihkan lagi, mangsa terpaksa menggunakan ibu jari kaki untuk mendail talian kecemasan 999 bagi meminta bantuan sebelum menceritakan kejadian itu kepada pihak polis.Ketua Bahagian Siasatan Jenayah daerah, Deputi Superintendan Kamaruzzaman Jaafar, ketika dihubungi semalam mengesahkan menerima laporan berhubung kejadian itu.Menurutnya, sepasukan anggota dari Ibu Pejabat Polis Daerah (IPD) Kuantan yang tiba di rumah mangsa terpaksa memecahkan pintu rumah apabila lelaki terbabit enggan membukanya.

Katanya, polis menemui mangsa dalam keadaan lemah selain bengkak di muka serta luka pada pergelangan tangan sebelum menghantarnya ke Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan (HTAA) di sini, untuk rawatan lanjut.Menurutnya, polis menahan suami mangsa yang sedang bersembunyi dalam bilik dan hasil ujian air kencing mendapati lelaki terbabit positif dadah jenis ganja.Beliau berkata, polis masih meneruskan siasatan lanjut berhubung kejadian itu mengikut Seksyen 342 Kanun Keseksaan kerana mengurung secara salah dan Seksyen 506 kanun sama kerana melakukan ugutan jenayah.“Lelaki terbabit kini direman 14 hari di IPD Kuantan selain akan mengambil keterangan tiga anak mangsa bagi membantu siasatan lanjut.“Suspek dipercayai dalam pengaruh dadah ketika melakukan perbuatan itu selain dilakukan kerana bermotifkan cemburu,” katanya.

haiz....asyek pompuan je kene pukul...

sedih sak bace artikel2 cam gini...

lagi2 pasal cemburu bute.....giler pe dorang....

eventhough they claimed dier amek dadah sebelom pukul....but i believe ader pon yg tk amek dadah or minom pon tetap pukul pompuan dorang cam nak giler....

haiz

2009-06-10T03:02:00.000+08:00

finally....got the photos from mas...ala..2 jeeeeeee...........boleh la tu
lagipon the meeting is a short one jeeeeee...

its gonna be a long weekdae ahead....
so guys..endure....tolerate k

how i wish i m the one controlling wat i wan to do...
but it seems hard.....
haiz...

2009-06-09T01:43:00.000+08:00

hmm..

fri was spent with my ite frens...hehehe

watched monster vs aliens..

i recommend u guys this movee....its funny i tell u...hahahahahaha

been quite sometyme tat i watched a movee....its owaes watching cds at home..

must drag bf to watch moveess sumtymes....

then after the spending tyme with frens...its tyme for my bf

its his family chalet....his mum's bdae...

first tyme i saw his relatives....

pening pe ramai org pat sane...then we managed to sneak away

hehehehehe...went back to his void deck..tayar mtr bocor seh...

yes2..the bike tat bf bought for me....(still wondering mtr ape kan!!??)

sial nyer kedai motor.....kate da service la hape la...

same je.....da 2-3 kali patah alik kedai pasal mtr buat hal..

then he unplugged (word ape tu???)the tayar(hahahahaha)

then we headed down to safra to change the tube....

aku la yg pegang tayar tu.....berat pe......hahahahahahahaha

lepas tu..da la...pasang balik..then hmm...spent the whole morning with bf

tu je...boring kan..tkpela...

kan idup aku..lao nak ckp happening...dulu la tyme aku maseh kecik2(hahahaha)

skrg da ader laki(mcm paham!!!!)....

hahahaha.....

2009-06-03T04:27:00.000+08:00

i dun need anione right now..

too many things in my mind....

2009-05-26T01:30:00.000+08:00

hey..its been awhile huh...

i lost someone whom i really love..but someone whom i never met before...

weird huh.....i knoeee....in case u r wondering whu it is....nah..nvm..i rather kip it to myself....

these past few weeks im not myself....been doing alot2 of thinking....

should i or shouldnt i...its such a painful decision but i have to go through it....

its tough...n sad too....

how i wish i could turn back time and treaure what i have..

i have sleepless nights tinking of this...i cant tink straight now...

i wanted to be strong but it seems do hard to do so

bf has owaes been there to cheer me up....i knoe he's sad too....

he's been taking care of me all this while.....i knoe its hard for him..to juggle his work n me...

but he manage it through..althou we had our arguements....

i want to thank his mum too for taking care of me while im sick...

i knoe im a burden but u didnt even complaint.....thanks cik...

every night..i cant stop thinking of that someone...

it pains me to see that someone go away just like tat....

i cant even hug or kiss to show my love....

but...its all over....that someone is gone...

i'll upate again..but not soon..

2009-05-08T03:24:00.000+08:00

its really sad when u are stressed up thinking abt ur relationship n family

i tout having these two ppl would make u e happiest..

its owaes me whu have to understand them

did they make the effort to understand me...

i cant divide myself to 2 parts...

i owaes have to think of a way to escape from my family events jus to be with him

but he doesnt knoe i realli miss my family gatherings...

i dun wan to show it to him...

so in the end..i lied...saeing i have this i have tat...

n the person whus owaes disappointed in me is my mum n grandma...

i think there's alot of ppl whu are disappointed..but i dun care..

i only care abt my grandparents feelings...

y is everyone so unfair to me..

wat abt the things tat i wan to do??

y is it evertyme must be you...

i hate it when i m caught in between family n relationship..

its a lot easier if either party is understanding

i dun mind spending the whole morning till late afternoon with my family

the rest of the dae with him...

i dun mind the tiredness...as long as all of u are happy...

dun care abt my feelings....coz after all these im the one whus been kiping me happy..

kiping all those damn feelings inside...

its not the tyme to explode...but im afraid one dae it will...

coz i knoe i will hurt alot2 of ppl..

this is the only space i thrash my feelings out..

i dun have friends or relatives to share my sadness...

if u r not comfortable reading this...by all means...i dun care...

no more deletion of entry....its soooo fake....

let me live my life the way it is...

if im fated to be this...i accept it with all my heart...

when im all alone...in my room....i keep thinking

but nothing is in my mind...weird huh.....

i kept staring into space...

im sick people

do i need to tell u personally that im sick...

i dun go around looking for sympathy...

so don't make me like this...

2009-04-28T04:06:00.000+08:00

im sorry..

earlier post was deleted....

aniwae....

IM GETTING A NEW BIKE!!!

after much endurance n berleter..he finally getting me a new bike!!!

mtr ape??if i tell u also u wun believe.....

hahahaha..aku pon tk caye aku nak bwk mtr tu sak....

THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-23T03:24:00.000+08:00

RaNdOm

1st crush

1st sAtIsfAcTiOn

2nD bIkE..mIsSiNg It AlOt!!

hmmm..stEp heNsEm jE..mEnyAmPah

mY sIstErS..bUt nOw bOth Are MarRiEd..eXcEpT mE!!!

i had the most shocking news just now...

my atuk was diagnosed with lung cancer...

early stage...the thought of it makes me soooo down...

but my nenek n atuk tak tau pasal nie...so..we r kiping it from them

if we were to tell...we dont knoe how they are goin to take it...

i really wish atuk would stop smoking
its the smoking tat causes all this....

i hope he'll heal....like i said...i dun wan to lose them...

he's going back from the hospital todae...

im glad......

i luv u atuk...n of coz nenek too...

2009-04-18T03:08:00.000+08:00

its hard to be in sumone's shadow...
practically he have to be there when u r there
even when u wan to do something...you needs his permission...
every single thing.......
even when u're hungry...n needed something to eat barely..u would rather starve then telling him...coz deep inside..u knoe he wont let u go out to buy when he's not around...
is this fair?not..its not abt fairness...its abt trust..ya..its trust...
i dun mind being with him for 24/7....i dun even haf space.....
all the things that i wan to achieve i hold it back...coz i knoe i wun get it even if i want it.....
im not blaming my life...im only blaming myself....

my yot passed away on monday....
it was a sad gudbye....but we manage it thru....
the memories of her will still remain in my heart....

then my sweet grandpa was hospitalised the dae after my yot died...
he fell...a hard fell...
he cant even rise up again....
he was shivering.....
went to cgh...it was almost 4-5 hours waiting for him....
when its over....he was said to be warded in....
everydae since tat dae..i want to be with him
im reli damn close to my grandparents.....
i luv them more than my life...i cant bear to see them in pain...
even tears in their eyes will jus make me cry too....
i dun wanna lose them.....i maybe selfish but i dun care...
they are my life.....i knoe they cared for us......
yesterdae..my atuk was cheerful n lively..it bring smiles to us...
im glad tat all his children....their spouses....his grandchildren are all there with him
all those time tat i drifted away from there makes me feel so regretful...
i should spent more tyme with them...
i reali should..i feel so ashamed to realised this now.....after wat had happend...

even if my life is shut from others....
i luv them..n nothing can stop me from meeting them when i wan to
i mean it..NUTING....
i may lose everything....i dun haf complaints...
i prayed life will be better for me.....

for pka...
hope u will get well soon...
stop riding for awhile my dear....
sorry i cant visit u at home......
hope u understand the life im in right now...

take care luv....

2009-04-07T03:44:00.000+08:00

i wonder wat is damn wrong with all the bus drivers!!!!

like they dun even care if there's a car or bike driving fast..they would jus choose to drive out of the bus bay....

wat if they hit.....whu is actually at fault then?the bus driver or the rider/driver?

there's this triangle rule that applies to CERTAIN AREAS...NOT ALL!!!

bus drivers!!!get tat in your head!!!......(correct me if im wrong)

from wat i understand from the rule is tat we have to slow down at the 1st triangle..then stop at the 2nd triangle to give way to buses...fair enuf.....but i jus dun understand y bus drivers tend to misuse these rules???sumtymes its not fair..we have our right of way.....

ride within bus lane in restricted hours kene saman....then bus driver dive in out lane...tkde saman...muke mcm sardine..like nuting happen....sumtymes taking up 2 lanes...isnt tat selfish!!

i tout taxi drivers mcm sial........now is the bus drivers.,..

like yesterday......after our KL trip(yeah....i went to KL with mr k...shopping la..jln2 la....penat seh...cam nak pecah kaki...but its a short trip la...went sat morning balik smalam mlm....tired sia......but it was fun...travelling with him....WISH THERE'S MORE..remember our june plans???)...ok aniwae..back to the bus story...

mr k was riding fast(ok2....blame him for speeding)......

there was a taxi infront....and the bus was jus dropping off passengers from the side road...

skali nie sial tk signal tak ape...jus drive out of the bus lane....

taxi tu da jam break....then mr k jam jugak.........we were like seconds to crashing with the taxi

but he managed to swerve and sempat selit tepi bus...showing his middle finger....

can imagine sak my feelings yesterday........da kat tekak pe jantung..the same feeling when i crash into a car with mr k behind me....hahaha..lagi ader pillion...accident plak tu

jantung da bukan pat tekak...da terkluar i tink....hauhauhuahuhauhauhaaaaa...

sumpah da tknk pillion org laen lagi.......when im alone riding..wow...mcm hero seh....selit sini selit sane.....kilas2..hehehehehe..laju pe...tapi lao ader org pat blakang...da mcm safety rider pe...

ikut undang2....huahuahuahuha.......always behind a car...tapi kadang2 ader try2 nasib jugak..selit jugak..tapikan SLOW NAK MAMPUS!!!huahuahuahuaha

org pat blakang mesti menyumpah

huahuahuahuhauhauhuahuaha

OKLA...tu all the BUS DRIVERS....

IM GETTING READY MY CAMERA...COZ U KNOE WAT!!

IM GONNA CATCH U IN THE ACT..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...U'RE GOING DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!

ee..jahat nyer.....hahahahahaha

2009-03-17T07:48:00.000+08:00

im hungry!!!

been eating alot this past few weeks...

gosh.....all my $$ are spent on food...hmm...isnt it good?

rather than i spent it on clothings..but hey..i loike shopping....

but i stopped shopping..its been awhile.....been buying food...all the tyme....

izit eating disorder??i heard tat before...but i cant recall where i heard it from..hope im not suffering from any diseases...hahahahahaha....

weekends was ok....met mr k on both daes......as usual...we spent on food...hahahahahahaha..

mr k was always calling me gendut.......(i dun even knoe if there's such a word)

and now..im still thinking of food...hmm.....wat will i eat later?

dun be surprise if u c me getting rounder in the next few months......

hahaha..i can imagine myself being bigger...hehehehehe

aniwae...i met lis n yaya pat jb...its quite sumtimes back

2-3 weeks ago

lis bikin mtr dier...yaya was there to accompany her......

gosh..da lamer pe tk nampak korang

hahahaha....even though we are not tat close...we use to ride together seh...

remember our first meetups....hahahaha

maseh p plate lagi.....yaya looks kiut with her wave...hahahaha..

glad to knoe yaya n lis are upgrading themselves...taking 2A seh....

hahaha...all the way ladies..make sure u achieve it..DUN GIVE UP 1/2 way!!!

the last tyme i met oshin was at woodlands checkpoint...

hahahaha.....mcm nak turun mtr....hug dier kuat2...

tapikan...tk jadi....takot org horn2 pat blakang plak..tat tyme i was pillioning mr k

n she's with her boyfey....

lao ekin n pka tu jgn ckp ler....tk nampak trus...hahahahahaha....

hope tu bump into u guys one dae..maner tau...pat traffic light ke....aleh2...ternampak ke..

i wish seh...mesti best....

oklor.....

make sure terserempak k...hehehe

pakse2 plak

2009-03-11T04:48:00.000+08:00

i wanna wish my dad a great

i may not be good at words but i'll try

dear dad...

eventhou we are not tat close..

i knoe u r are owaes there when i need you

owaes giving me the encouragemenr when i feel like giving up

giving me stuffs to cheer me up...

u owaes knoe im not like the one b4.....been kipping to myself

eventhou sumtymes im angry with u for not listening but i never once hated u

coz i knoe...u're doin the best for me....

the tymes im growing up...i owaes thought u're the worst

but as tymes pass..i knoe u're the best........

im beginning to understand what its like being a parent...

coz i feel myself being one and i picture myself having a child like me

DISASTROUS..hahahahahahahaha

thanks dad....for all the luv

and once again..happy bdae...

may all ur wishes came thru........

2009-03-10T03:49:00.000+08:00

FUCK OFF!!!!

KIMAK!!PASAL CASHCARD SIAL!!!

WHU DO U TINK U R ASS!!!....FUCKING SHIT

LAEN KALI JGN LETAK MOTOR PAT SINI AR

KAO PIKIR AKU BOLEH MAMPOS PE TKDE MTR

AKU TK HERAN LA SIAL!!!!

AKU TK MATI LA TKDE KAO!!!....

APE AKU BIKIN SUMER TK KENE

AKU JE NAK KENE UNDERSTAND

LAEN KALI TKMO BUAT AKU CAM GINI AR!!!

KAO TAU PE AKU NGAH CAMNE SKRG!!!

AKU PON TK INGIN AR NIE SUMER

MENYUSAHKAN HIDUP AKU!!!!!

2009-03-07T02:38:00.000+08:00

i dun know what has come over me

i thought having a much more longer experience in riding means that u are much more confident when riding on road..

but it seems to me that im getting more n more scared when i ride nowadays

weird...or maybe im just a girl..but im not like that b4...always trying to be fast....

or maybe.....forget it...

its funny though when i tink about it...hahahaha.....

especially when im the pillion...(only to mr k)

im always looking ard for cars or other vehicles whenever he wants to change lane..

coz he rides way to dangerously..i used to enjoy it but now....its scary.....

maybe its time for me to give up riding and focus on my car license....

tapikan.....from all the videos i've seen...especially SOME women drivers....they can be a pain in the ass sia..(no offence ppl)....

i wonder if i will be like them.....parking rabak...nak tekan brake abe teraccelerate....

kecoh pe this ppl...i hope...really hope tat i will not become like tat

so...its FRIDAY!!!yahuuuu.........

i wanna go JB!!!nak lik DVD....hehehehehehe......

and also to grab some stuff for mk k's rxz....

yap..he sold off his spark n now nak bikin balik mtr rxz dier tu.....

so..all the best b!!!!......siap kan cepat2 k....

2009-02-28T06:51:00.000+08:00

im not sure what im feeling now

happy?sad?excited?shocked?

its too sudden....im not well prepared

wat m i goin to do now?

2009-02-25T02:32:00.000+08:00

i wan to say sorry to my friends

for doing what i tink is right for me

i knoe u r there when im at my lowest point

but i just cant leave him

i luv him too much even though there are tymes when i wanted to leave him

i hope u understand what im doin

i knoe u wan the best n i appreaciate it lotz

especially to Q...u treat me reli well but i cant seem to face u now

coz i know u too wan the very best and wanted me to move on with my life

being happy as always....but sumtymes there are times when i feel that i cant

i dun wan to kip running away each tyme i saw u...

i wan to hug n talk to u when we met.....but it just seems impossible right now...

im sorry if i avoided you...coz u never did abandon me when i need you...

i hope u will forgive me...i can never forgive myself for losing such a good friend like you......

all the stories i heard bout ur past n shasha's past make me realised alot....

but not all are the same...maybe it is the same..but im willing to take the risk..

if he's yours...he's gonna be yours....we plan but its HIM whu decides..

thanks for all the troubles you took when u heard im having problems..

and you looked out for me each day

appreaciate it lotz...n ur deeds and sacrifices will never once i forget..coz its too precious and touching for me....

thanks Q..and to all my friends too whu encouraged me...

2009-02-21T09:08:00.000+08:00

Hey people!!!

its FRIDAY!!!!

spent it well...especially with ur family...luved ones n friends!!!!

mUaHz

2009-02-19T03:17:00.000+08:00

rAnDoM

haiz....tk paham2 lagi...

susah nak kasi org2 ni paham.....

tkpela..asalkan dier happy yerrr....

zie!!congrats on ur vdae celebration....

bestnyer...dpt cake.....bunge lagi....

n also..mission aku da accomplish....hahahahahaha

lega sikit hati aku..

eeee...geli ar....................

i dun knoe how to express it

at last my blogskin has been changed

but of thinking of changing it again.....

fickle minded pe kao..hahahahaha

p/s : found a home at tampines....confius?

well..i'll explain...after everything has been settled...*evil grin*

hehehehehehehehehe

2009-02-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

cant be bothered with some ppl...

there's no room for explanation actually...

coz i REALLY CANT B BOTHERED.....

so next tyme pls be specific in what u type...

so that ppl would UNDERSTAND BETTER..rather than thinking

*sial ar...bdk nie bobual pasal aku pe?*

btw..like i said...u can just scrap off my contacts in any of ur contacts

i dun socialise animore....

aniwae...i dun wan to waste ani more tyme explaining..

calling or finding any ways to be in contact with u......

im having one hell of a ride in my life right now

might as well focus all my energy in mending my life and heart

went to vivo city with mr k.....

no plans...after dinner we just straight headed to that place

nak jln penat....(after a long frustrating dae)...hahahaha

pemalas....we just jln abit then duduk enjoying the scenery outside vivo

(ala...yg le nampak the sea la)

tok..make jokes...

i must admit..we had been thru a journey of hell.....

everything was like crashing down on me....

been taking it slowly but its driving me crazy.....

been working on the relationship......making it better

but the past few daes was all abt the quarelling and fighting

but i knoe u're trying.....

i hope we will pull this thru.....after giving u a chance to prove urself......

the daes of being separated from u was like *god...it hurts..alot*

i hope we pull this thru

remember our dreams??

the house

the family

the commitment.....

im waiting for that dae to come...

eventhoug sumtymes i feel like STRANGELING U TO DEATH...hahahahaha

i knoe2...ckp je da benci tapi tetap maseh ngan dier

well....this is wat i tink its called LUV IS BLIND...hahahahahahahahahaha

when u r separated for awhile with that sumone u reli love.....

u will feel the lost even when u knoe he's making u losing everything...

am i right?

LaLa

2009-02-12T05:30:00.000+08:00

wish me all the best
coz...
1>i wanna get married
2>i wanna a new career
3>i wanna a new house
4>i wanna get a part tyme job
5>i wanna change of attitude
6>i wanna make myself useful by listening to my hubby's words

well..that's it for now.... will include if there's more...

LaLa

2009-02-11T03:42:00.000+08:00

some people jus pissed me off

in her multiply/blog...this is what she wrote

Thanks to all the frens dat turn up..

next event i have.. might jus invited u guys.. cos dis is wat i kol frens..

hold it!!!!

1 > i knoe u invited me

2 > how do u define a friend?

first n foremost.....i only saw u 2 times

does tat consider a friend?i thought a friend is sumone whum u go out with any other day

a friend is sumone u open up your mind with

NOT SUMONE U JUST REMEMBERED WHEN U WANT TO INVITE TO UR FUCKING BDAE!!

abez da org tk dtg nak kasi such a childish remarks....

org tu da tknk dtg..kao bleh buat ape....

memang aku tk kasi kao any answer back..but if u tink abt it....

klau org tu da tk msg tak call......high chances mesti tk dtg pe....

so do me or sum of ur friends yg tk dtg tu a favour.......

just scrap off the names off ur namelist.....

as for me...i dun give a damn

if u were to sae im the childish one

well...this is how i react to sumone whu's fucking pissed me off

LaLa

2009-02-07T07:40:00.000+08:00

Its been quite awhile that i was missing..hahahahahaha

but the main concern is the blog's DEAD!!!

i realised it was dead when i actually log on o my webpage...hahahahaha

damn!!......its been long sia.......

aniwae..no new updates on me...jus been thinking to change my blog outlook

been thinking of colours.......to make it look alive....not dull....

but that has to be done with patience...u knoe the html can be sooooo fucking fucked up....

aniwae....we celebrated shasha surprise bdae at marina barrage....

its was soo windy that i actually taste my own hair..haiz...nasib2....

but we had fun....there's alot of photos but i cant put it here.....

too lazy to wait for it to upload.....

kla..haf fun ppl....may ur weekend is a blast!!!

Thanks bro for letting me ride ur bike..

kesian aku nak kene pinjam mtr orang..

since he's away this few daes..im the riding...hauhuahuhauhauhahauhauha

take care!!!

LaLa

2009-01-20T04:47:00.000+08:00

Singapura : 16 Januari 2009

PENUNGGANG WANITA MAUT DALAM NAHAS
OlehSaini Salleh

SEKUJUR tubuh terbujur kaku akibat satu kemalangan di Seletar Ekspreswe (SLE) menghala ke Ekspreswe Central (CTE) dekat jalan susur keluar menuju ke Lentor Avenue pagi semalam.
Pemberita yang kebetulan melintas di situ mendapati mayat mangsa diselimuti kain putih dan ditutup dengan khemah berada di sisi roda depan sebuah lori.
Polis ketika dihubungi semalam mengesahkan pihaknya menerima panggilan mengenai kemalangan melibatkan dua buah lori dan sebuah motosikal sekitar 8.20 pagi.
Mangsa, seorang wanita Melayu berusia pertengahan 20-an tahun, disahkan meninggal dunia di tempat kejadian sekitar 10 minit kemudian.
Beliau, yang dipercayai seorang kakitangan Penguasa Pengangkutan Darat (LTA), dikatakan dalam perjalanan ke tempat kerja semasa nahas itu berlaku.
Polis masih meneruskan siasatan mengenai punca kemalangan itu.

amin

i feel sad reading the news....this kind of things are unexpected...

you wun know wats ur life gonna be like tomorrow.....

u may live..u may not....

that is why when im riding....i tried to be careful....

but those cars or other large vehicles dun care bout u...

they will jus go to ur lane..w/o signalling...

like this saying 'suke hati mak bapak korang'

Pls...to all the riders out there......ride safely...

sumtymes even if we are careful..the rest are not...

but no matter what...
berhati hati di jln raye!!

LaLa

2009-01-14T06:43:00.000+08:00

i want to thank my family and especially my friends...for all the help that u gave...i will never 4get what u guys did for me...even if i sucks at relationships but im glad to knoe that you are there when i need u guys the most...

wat i felt during the past months was always kept inside me...n im glad i open up and listened to ur advices....so..im following my heart right now.....im left with no options..

but he will owaes be in my heart no matter wat..

even though we are separated...i wun forget the memories that he left behind..

i knoe he's nice..but his badness is taking control...

im not asking for much...but its too late now....

im gone..........for good

my love will never changed..coz he's the one i fall in luv with...

n its hard to forget him...

take care luv...may u changed n i can always wait

even if you dun wan me animore when u changed..i haf no regrets but i'll be happy coz u had actually changed....i hope the lady u found later will not be like me...not bein understanding enuf..hope she treats u better and makes u feel appreaciated.

I fail as a gerlfren...i hope for all the forgiveness...

i love u...till the end

LaLa

2009-01-13T04:34:00.000+08:00

hmm....1 dae had past..so its HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO ME!!!

i wan to tank my family mr boyfriend n friends for the well wishes n presents

appreaciate it lotz...

will upload the pics when i have them k..and will tell you bout my celebration also

so for now......

IM OLD!!!!!

LaLa

2009-01-02T17:13:00.000+08:00

FYI
i haf in laws from hell!!!
i owaes heard mr boifren complaining bout his family
all i could do is just to advice n console...nuting much i can do
i dun like them tooo when i first met them
but there's this day i went over to his place..i was playing games using my laptop using the internet at his place
his father purposely see wat we doing
then when he realised that we are using the internet, he was like 'ape ni'
he was telling me off.....tak terime sak aku....
aku tau la aku kai internet kao...takkan skejap pon takle kan...
its not like you have to pay more bills coz i played games...
there is this things called FREE ONLINE GAMES...gosh
then i learnt from mr boifren that his father keep the internet in his room...mcm sial kan prangai
i was so fed up......
first they dumped their eldest son..
adek2 dier pon merepek...
blajar je tinggi2....respect pon takde...
haiz..tak paham ar....
they expect mr boifren to tolak them $$$
klau duit dier cukup nak tolak mesti dier tolak pe...
gaji dier lao sbulan 2-3k tu ok la.....
pasal tak tolak dorang $$..they chased my boifren out of the house...
pakai ni tkle pakai tu tkle...
tats y i told mr boifren to slowly look for a house...
kesian dier....nak kene clp pat bwh blok seh......
family dier depan org je nampak happy family....padahal blakang da mcm sial....
i jus dun understand parents....
i knoe they expect us to at least give them $$ after we started working...
tapi lao duit tu tak cukup nak kasi dorang camner>?
bills laen...installment laen.....nnti kasi sikit ckp asal sikit....
too demanding......
if any of his family members reading this...U GUYS R PATHETIC!!
i knoe im marrying ur son one day...N I DUN CARE IF U DUN WAN TO ATTEND THE WEDDING

i wonder will i be this way when i haf kids...??
its hard to say....maybe i am..maybe i will not...

okies...that a fucking way to start my new year..
n i dun give a shit bout them..i dun own them aniting....
i just hate them.......
its sad to see me hating sumone's family..especially ur loved one's family
but i cant help it
it u were in my shoes..u will understand...
maybe u will tink....kurang ajar...or watever words....
like i said..u haf to be in my position to understand

haiz...so..im owaes late in wishing
so...here goes

2008-12-18T15:59:00.000+08:00

Happy 24th birthday mr BOYFRIEND!!!

i may not haf any plans for your birthday coz im financial tight right now...

no birthday cake

no surprise party

no presents

but only a birthday wish

we may fight

we may haf alot of things to settle

but never once in my mind not thinking bout u...

i may wan to leave u..but it never did...

coz each tyme i wanted too..i jus cant...

i may not be the perfect girlfriend

nor the one that can make u happy

tanks for being with me all these while...

through the thickest n thinnest moments in my life...

may all ur wishes come true..and haf a better life ahead...

wish u all the bestest of luck n hope u can change...

once again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

from the bottom of my heart

LaLa

2008-12-17T03:22:00.000+08:00

here goes nothing...

im sorry

sorry for making u mad

sorry for trying to defend myself

sorry for being ego

sorry for all the misunderstadings that we had

sorry for creating trouble

sorry for being myself..

and sorry for everything

ok...

mr boyfriend found himself a new job...

its a tough one but at least its a decent job

happy for him..coz tat job interest him......

so i wish him all the best in his career....

y is it so hard for sumone to leave the person she luv most?

she said she's leaving you but ended up giving him a chance....

is it called infatuation or love?

i dunnoe..maybe its love...

i hope i dont make the wrong desicions...n wun regret aniting in my life....

now..im trying my best to understand n making him understand...

if that doesnt work...onli god knoes wat will happen......

LaLa

2008-12-16T07:17:00.000+08:00

managed to mit up with my ite beaus on last weekend
went to pasir ris for cycling*tanks god its in pasir ris*hehehehehe
can wake up abit late on sun morning........
haf fun..loadsof fun......been ages since we met.......
during our sch years..we were close.....
but now...everyone has their own personal life to take care of..
especially me......too many stuffs to take care of......

went down to mit them at 9am(or was it at 10?)

they grabbed breakfast while i watched them eat..i am not a breakfast kind of person..

took the bus...(its been awhile since im on a bus)

reached our destination..paid $10 for a 3 hours ride...

OVERALL : FUN!!!

Dun ride when u're tired..u tend to make faces...hahahahaha

LaLa

2008-12-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

jus reach home..wanna post this b4 i go to bed...

after missing him so much *coz like i said,we fought n i avoided him yesterday*, mr boifren brought me to Bugis..he surprised me by bringing me to swensens...!!although i wanted ~~lunch for swensen~~ but wat the heck.....it still surprise me though...never thought he would cheer me up by bringing mua to my favourite ice cream restaurant

THANKS BABY.....

hmm..

after the dinner...we went to bugis market....he bought himself 1 jeans n for me...its a butterfly belt....white sumore.....kiut....nak jln2 lagi...but the place is damn packed.....

takle move langsung....

then lepak2...bobual...ttdo.....until 4+ am.......g supper....mkn prata....

skrg aru nak sampai umah...penat nie..

LaLa

2008-12-14T06:07:00.000+08:00

at home now..still thinking of wat to do...

damn bored i must sae....

giving him the silent treatment is torturing me...

i cant help it...even we fight i still miss him

coz when we fight..i tend to avoid him..and by avoiding....i dun get to talk to him....

maybe i shld accept the fact that he's controlling me....

jus live the life like this...*or do i wan a life like this?*

the more i think of my life...the more i hate my life...

im twentiesh years old but yet im being controlled by mr boyfriend...

is this how god plan my life....???i hate qns and aswers.....when i haf the qns they dun haf the answer.....

i cant change the way life is right now..coz when i try changing it...sumone will not like it

this life is all abt that sumone..never once abt me...

well..i guess this is my pathetic life.....

i dun need sympathy..i jus need hearing ears...

LaLa

2008-12-13T08:25:00.000+08:00

WHERE'S YOUR FUCKING TRUST!!

JGN INGAT AKU NAK MAEN2 KAN KAO LA

AKU TAKDE TYME...LAO AKU NAK MAEN2KAN KAO DA LAMER AKU BUAT

TAK PAYAH NAK TUNGGU SKRG...

AKU PAT KEJE PON KAO NAK CHECK2...

LAO TELEPON ENGAGED KE OR AKU TAK ANGKAT KE NNTI START AR KAO NYER MEREPEK....

ONLINE NGAN SAPE LA..G MANER LA...

KAP PIKIR AKU KEJE OPIS DUDUK PAT DESK PE SIAK

TAK PAYAH NAK G TEMPAT LAEN

ABE TEPON OPIZ NIE UNTK KAO KOL AKU JE LA??!!!ORG LAEN TAKYA KOL

PAKAI OTAK KAO TU SIKIT

NNTI SUMER KAO SALAHKAN AKU...

PERANGAI BUDAK2

JGN SAMPAI SATU HARI AKU DA FED UP TUL2 NGAN KAO

AKU MESTI ILANG DARI KAO NYER...

AKU TRY NAK IDUP HAPPY EH NGAN KAO

TAPI LAO PERANGAI MASEH CAM SIAL...AKU MESTI ILANG NYER

AKU TAU ASAL KAO TKNK AKU AMEK BALIK PSP NGAN WALLET AKU...

PASAL KAO TAU LAO KAO BUAT PERANGAI AKU TAKLE PUTUS..PASAL BRG2 AKU NGAN KAO..THINK AGAIN

AKU LE HIDUP TANPA PSP....MY PERSONAL DOCUMENTS.......I CAN JUS REPORT LOST

WITH $$...I CAN MAKE MY LICENSE N I/C AGAIN.....

JGN PIKIR KAO LE HOLD AKU....BILER2 AKU LE ANGKAT KAKI JLN...

FUCKING LIFE!!

LaLa

2008-12-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

I haf nuting to update right now..maybe sum other tyme...

jus feel like posting sumtyng....but i jus cant tink of aniting..*damn*

so aniwae...SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI to all my muslim frens....

i knoe its too late to wish but hey its the thought that counts......

will update u guys soon...but not now....dunnoe when......

maybe i will give my blog a new look...i'll tink abt it....

so....to all the swit peepz..tanks for tagging and leaving ur advice...

feel touch seeing it coz i dun even knoe u....tanks for the tyme spent here..

mUaHz

LaLa

2008-11-30T16:40:00.000+08:00

its over....i hate him...hate him alot...

wats the use of being wit sumone when u cant be happy....

i tried to be happy wit him..but i jus cant

he's controlling me....every day every min every secs

i have no space at all...even during lunch tyme....he jus cant see me happy...

i knoe his gud intentions....

jus imagine...everytyme we fight...he haf to speak about my xboifrens..

is it neccessary???i dun tink so....he jus dun care wat im feeling...

he make me stay away from my friends n family....

now...i dun even haf a fren to share my woes....

is this the way to make a relationship happy???

even my parents dun like him..i still believe he can changed..but he proved me wrong

past few days i've been thinking bout this relationship...

marriage is not a game...

not being happy now doesnt mean u will be happy in the future....

im thinking back at wat my parents told me when i sae i wan to be him..

n slowly im starting to believe their every words...

i used to hate my parents for not believing in me..but i knoe y...

we make mistakes...even thou our parents are against our desicions

the do this for us....

we can lost our friends and special ones but not our family..

watever happens they are always supporting us without us knoeing it....

i regret my desicions....right from the start when im wit him....

bcoz of him i fight with my mum...losing my mum's attention...

does he care!!!NOOOO!!!!!

the one whus suffering alot is ME!!!dun u get it!!!

i haf to lie to my parents....jus to b wit u...

i made up my mind...i dun care wat we've been thru...

the hardships....the happiness....

all i wan is to happy....i haf to start from now.....

n now im asking u to leave me....

my feelings for u has faded..nuting u do will make me luv u again...

n if i were to find another sumone again....

i jus wan him to accept me regardless of my past....

coz..sumtymes when we are in luv..we tend to do aniting n everything for tat sumone...

LaLa

2008-11-27T15:37:00.000+08:00

AduLt JoKes

A guy is hanging out in his favorite bar when he spots a fabulous babe walking in on the arm of some ugly guy. He asks the bartender about her and is surprised to discover that she's a prostitute. He watches her the rest of the night, amazed that someone so attractive could be available to him.
The next night he goes back to the bar, and sure enough she shows up again, only this time alone. The guy gets up his nerve and approaches her. "Is it true you're a prostitute?"
"Why, sure, big boy. What can I do for you?"
"Well, I dunno. What do you charge?"
"I get $100 just for a handjob. We can negotiate from there."
"$100 For a handjob? Are you nuts?"
"You see that Ferrari out there?"
The guy looks out the front door, and sure enough there's a shiny new Ferrari parked outside.
"I paid cash for that Ferrari with the money I made on handjobs. Trust me, it's worth it."
The guy mulls it over for a while, and decides what the hell. He leaves with her, and gets the most unbelievable experience he's ever had. This handjob was better than any complete sexual experience in his miserable life.
The next night he's back at the bar, waiting eagerly for her to show up. When she does, he immediately approaches her.
"Last night was incredible"
"Of course it was. Just wait ‘til you try one of my blowjobs."
"How much is that?"
"$500"
"$500? C'mon, that's ridiculous."
"You see that building across the street?"
The guy looks out front at a 12 story building.
"I paid cash for that building with the money I made on blowjobs. Trust me, it's worth it."
Based on the night before, the guy decides to go for it. He leaves with her, and once again is not disappointed. He nearly blacks out twice from the pleasure he receives.
The next night he can hardly contain himself until she shows up. "I'm hooked, you're the best Tell me, what'll it cost me for some pussy?"
She motions for him to follow her outside. She points down the street, where between the buildings he can see Manhattan. "You see that island?"
"Aw, c'mon, You can't mean that."
She nods her head. "You bet. If I had a pussy, I'd own Manhattan

A man wanted to get married. He was having trouble choosing among three likely candidates. He gives each woman a present of $5,000 and watches to see what they do with the money.
The first does a total make over. She goes to a fancy beauty salon gets her hair done, new make up and buys several new outfits and dresses up very nicely for the man. She tells him that she has done this to be more attractive for him because she loves him so much.
The man was impressed.
The second goes shopping to buy the man gifts. She gets him a new set of golf clubs, some new gizmos for his computer, and some expensive clothes. As she presents these gifts, she tells him that she has spent all the money on him because she loves him so much.
Again, the man is impressed.
The third invests the money in the stock market. She earns several ! times the $5,000. She gives him back his $5000 and reinvests the remainder in a joint account. She tells him that she wants to save for their future because she loves him so much.
Obviously, the man was impressed.
The man thought for a long time about what each woman had done with the money he'd given her.
Then, he married the one with the biggest boobs.
Men are like that, you know.

A boy takes his girlfriend home after going out together. When they reach the front door, he leans against the wall with one hand and says,
"Sweetie, can you give me a blowjob?" "What? Are you crazy!?" He says "Don't worry, it will be quick, no problem." "No!! Someone may see -- a relative, a neighbor, anyone..." "At this time of the night? No one will show up honey..." She insistantly says "I've already said NO. Someone will see us."At this point he pleas one last time, "My love... Please don't be like that..."
At that moment, the girlfriend's younger sister shows up at the door in her nightgown with her hair totally in disorder. Rubbing her eyes, she says,
"Dad says either you have to blow him, I have to blow him, or he will come down and give the guy a blowjob himself, but for God's sake, tell your boyfriend to take his hand off the damn intercom button!"

hOpe u GuYs hAd fUn ReaDiNg..jUs wAnNa sHaRe wHaT i rEaD iN e WeB

LaLa

2008-11-26T09:43:00.000+08:00

its hard to knoe whether that sumone is happy or jus pretending to be happy...

i may look happy on the outside but no one knoes wat im feeling on the inside...

i may laugh i may smile...im jus telling myself to be happy in life no matter how u knoe its hard

i miss my family

i miss my friends

i miss my freedom

i miss my happiness

n most importantly..i miss myself so much that i cant stop crying thinking of it.....

ppl..live life to the fullest..

u will never knoe which dae is your last

LaLa

2008-11-21T16:21:00.000+08:00

LaLa

2008-11-19T10:31:00.000+08:00

I was browsing thru my old files when i saw this pictures..yeah..tyme P PLATE...hahahaha

this is the bike tat i missed alot...i regret selling but hey...there's no use regretting..

im planning with my boifren thinking tat im gonna buy a similar bike...maybe not x1 but spark...maintenance ok..minyak lagi ok..hahahaha...k la..jus wanna share the pixs....

LaLa

2008-11-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

LaLa

2008-11-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

ELECTRIC NEWS
STREET TALK
Time for licences, tests for cyclists
By Sylvia Toh Paik Choo
November 13, 2008

Let me sum it up....

its quite not surprising...i was expecting this eventually

Heaven knows, enough bike riders out there on the streets already believe they have a licence to brush past, run into, injure and maim passers-by and bystanders, so let's make it official.

not so much a licence plate for the two-wheeler, but a bicycling licence for the rider.

He will have to sit for and pass a road culture kind of highway code, its primary aim to teach the two-bit prince of the road that flesh is more important than rubber and metal.

Hey, Mr Cyclist, it's not your grandfather's road

These cyclists go against the flow of traffic and come at you from every angle.
And they seem to think they are doing nothing wrong.

When The New Paper team visited Geylang Road recently, we saw 12 cyclists going against the flow of traffic - within 15 minutes.
Some were deliverymen for the many food stalls in the area.
Anecdotal evidence from interviews seems to suggest that many of those who flout the rules are foreigners.

hmm...true enuf..these cyclist pose a threat to road users...especially those whu flaunt the traffic laws..ya..we haf to give way to cyclist and pedestrians but sumtymes these cyclist are just too much...cutting in the lanes like nobody business...

when we hit...their fault oso we kena...cheeebei....i once experienced this b4..i almost hit this bangla riding bicycle...it was my right of way making a right turn from the junction..then this bangla..suddenly ride past me...ape lagi...E BRAKE laaaa...luckily my brakes are strong enuf..if not...REVOKED siak....haiz.....

so the moral is....cyclist pls take the test once the goverment expedite this law...its for our own good tooo.....

LaLa

horoscope of the day

2008-11-13T18:00:00.000+08:00

You will be called flighty if you can't commit today. Say yes only if you're ready.

Overview
You run the risk of being called flighty if you commit to something when you know deep down inside you won't follow through with it. So today, if someone asks you to get involved in something that doesn't really interest you, then do everyone a favor and tell them you're not interested. If you're afraid you might hurt their feelings, then telling a tiny white lie wouldn't be a bad way to go. Just don't say 'yes' when what you really want to say is 'no way.'

Daily Flirt:
Spend extra time on emails and -- especially -- texting today. You have to make sure people don't misunderstand the first time. You might not be able to head the confusion off at the pass before it gets out of control.
Daily Couples:
When you're always on the go you sometimes have to force yourself to relax. Make some time today to set everything else aside and just chill with your loved one.
Daily Singles:
Today skip the long monologues and cut to the chase. Being precise instead of verbose will earn you a more attentive audience. Make your point and give people a chance to react.

Career & Finance

You don't have to be an egghead, but being intellectual about this can only help. Not sure just what that means? Clarity of thought is your key to success, at least today.

LaLa

2008-11-12T11:35:00.000+08:00

im thinking of changing my profession..hahahaha(cam keje lawyer plak aku)

from admin to something tiring n interesting...

i hate sitting in the office all day long and waiting for the tyme to go home

i need adventure

till today..i cant tink of any work tat suits my interest.....

for the past 2 jobs that i hold are jus admin stuff......

hmm...maybe..a despatch rider..hahaha...not jus any despatch rider....

come to think of it..its interesting..i get to ride my bike all day...

disadvantages......i'll get SUN BURNT...hahahaha

look at my boifren...he's turning black...(oopppsss)...hehehehehe

but i dun mind..im not the type whu wears high heels..tight black pants...tight sleeveless blouse....nah..tats not me..i prefer slippers...jeans..aniting tat is comfy....

so i dun mind losing a job whereby i can sit all dae in an aircon room and i get to wear nice clothes everyday..

ppl might sae..come on..u're a lady..tat job fits u the most...

then i will them off by saeing...its not abt the work..its abt enjoying the work that im doin

imagine goin to work everydae...the feeling of laziness coz u jus hated doin the job...

might as well u find sumting tat interest u..

true enuf its impossible to find a job tat cater to ur needs..i understand..

tat is y till now im still working...same old job....

haiz...well...i will changed to a despatch rider...whu knoes i might enjoy it....

i jus need to try...hehehehehehe......

enuf abt work..

hmm...im selling my KR150...

im still thinking of the price...

balance payment....8 mths more...$150/mth..

i dun knoe y i buy that bike in the first place...

i prefer my x1..the oil...maintenance..its so damn easy...

KR...the oil..the full tank!!!hahahahaha

the 2t oil....haiz...n the weight..its not ideal for me.....

so..tat is y im letting go..

i welcome test ride..coz i knoe its important to knoe how the engine is like...

tats the main thing to take note when buying a bike....

maybe im getting x1-R..hahahaha...maybe...

LaLa

wTf

2008-11-11T10:36:00.000+08:00

i dun give a shit to what ppl think..

i owaes tink for others but do they tink for me??

i dun ask for much..just RESPECT....

im goin all out now...spending my hard earned cash for something that i want..

aniting....i dun care...

im doin my hair...getting unwanted things that i tink i shld just buy to satisfy myself..

getting new clothings.....accessories....shoes....(wat other things that a lady wants?)

i dun care about my bike animore....nak kene repo ke..da jahanam ke...whu gives a fuck...

wow..thats a relieve...venting out my anger....

its easy to say sorry after saeing all those mean words...

it hurts deeply and emotionally...but after all tat...just a simple sorry..

a sorry doesnt count if u r not sincere....and after all those memories...I DUN 4GIVE U..

i will never will...i cant think straight..no mood to eat..no mood to slp...

it just tooo hurtful..

U TINK SORRY IS ENUF AFTER ALL U HAD DONE!!!!!...

it will never will.....

y are my feelings filled with so much hatred??!!!i wan to be happy and joyful...

owaes thinking of the fun side....

hey ppl....dun ever sacrifice your desires n dreams for ppl whu dun appreaciate u...

live ur dreams...dun let someone pull u down...

life is abt muving forward...once u lose it...u will lose it 4ever....

trust me on this..i knoe better....

LaLa

2008-11-07T12:03:00.000+08:00

this tag board is sooo damn bored....

i'll lose all my tags...there's no kiping the old ones...gone jus like tat..

WTF.....haiz.....

n..im tooo lazy to change to a better one...

i would rather focus on sumtyng else.......

kla..tu je...hahahahaha

LaLa

2008-11-07T11:54:00.000+08:00

im goin for a medical appointment today...
thinking of it makes me...SCARED...
jus a check up....pertaining my stomach...
owaes having cramps during periods..n last 2 mths had been toooo painful
went to the doc last week n took my blood for test...
test out....recommend for ultrasound....to check my womb....
it might be fibroid(i tink that's the spelling)....which was causing the pain..
the doc told me it's normal among ladies..but still..im scared...
there are alot of WHATIFs in my mind right now..
problems after problems....it jus cant go away...far away from me....

but still...im goin later in the afternoon...
i need to drink 4 glasses of water before the ultrasound...n I CANT EMPTY MY BLADDER...
i'll try....

pray for my gud health.....tanks....
i'll update...

LaLa

LuGe DoWn..SkYrIdE uP

2008-11-06T11:55:00.000+08:00

we been thru alot....

and i understand ur pain...

hope we can last till the end...eventhou we had alot of disgreements...

i'll change and think ahead for us...hope u do the same too...

aniwae..i have uploaded the pics...taken at sentosa..(as promised)

the fun tymes...

2008-11-05T11:49:00.000+08:00

sumtymes i wonder...y is my life this way

u're fighting for someone..and u lost ur friends n family

n the next thing u realised...is it worth fighting for?...

i lost everything....frens to laugh family to care...

is life being fair for me?i want my life back..my frens n family....

is being in love necessary?do i need someone special in my life?

he gets everything he wans..but me...nuting...nuting that i want...

i owaes put him 1st in everything...eventhough i knoe i cant afford...

i wan the best for him...i put alot of my dreams and desire behind for him...

watever he wans..he gets it..coz its important..watever i wan...no need la coz its not important..

is this wat i get for being loyal...and for goodness sake..there's no trust...

i've done alot...and i knoe he done his part too..

i cant pour out my feelings to him...coz each tyme i do..it will be a war between us...

wat m i to do..i luv him but i cant live with him...i had enuf...

oh god..pls....

end this suffering....i am not happy...i am not.....

i dun want to live my life in sadness.....i wan to be happy..like any others

pls grant my wish.....pls

LaLa

2008-11-04T11:19:00.000+08:00

aku stress ar!!buat nie tkle..buat tu tkle...aku nak bikin ape???!!!!

asal laptop je nak bobual pasal msn...takde keje laen pe siak...

laptop takle..moto tkle..kawan takle..sumer skali ar!!!kan senang sikit..tk payah nak pening2 kepale....

APE NK JADI NIE!!!???

GOD

trust la sikit...takde trust camne nak idup happy..

haiz....SEDIH

LaLa

2008-10-31T11:46:00.000+08:00

im currently werking on something new

not really sure if i can make it..its just a wildest idea that came to me

hubby was also thinking of the same idea tooo....cool

this will take alot alot of patience and perseverence if i wan it to be a success....

u guys must be thinking..wat the hell is she gonna do??!!!well...

i'll tell u once im officially done.....wait k

past few daes was quite bored..especially at werk...craps....

last weekend..went to sentosa with hubby..didnt expect him to bring me there....

so was quite not well-prepared at all....damn hot...(i'll upload the pics once i haf it..promise)

we took the luge ride down and skyride up...hahahahaha..

luge was fun!!!...u shld try it......

there's this grp infront of us....DAMN SLOWWWW.....

then i jus overtake n overtake at a high speed..hahaha...followed by hubby at the back..

we were racing thru all the way down....

and they specifically said NO RACING...hahahah..but wat the heck..it was fun...

skyride was jus a relax moment where we just sit n took pictures....it was high though..

i hate it when it stopped and we were just hanging high up in the sky....SCARY..

i was holding on to his arms all the way....maybe i found a new phobia in me..SCARED OF HEIGHTS....hmmmm

after sentosa...we went to vivo n jus roam ard...have lunch cum dinner as well

hehehehhehehehe...nuting much after that.....

great weekend spent with hubby....

tired exhausted but happy...

owaes making me smile n laugh my heads off.....

finally finally finally

i changed my w980i to nokia express music phone..(damn i dunnoe the model number)

hahahahahahaha....but most importantly..it doesn't hang!!!hahahahaha....the ericsson phone was like it keep hanging and hanging....sent to service center once and ITS STILL THE SAME OLD PROBLEM..they took 1 week plus to repair and the result is WASTING OF TYME...

ok......SO WAIT FOR MY SOMETHING NEW....hehehehe..i kip u guys posted ASAP

taking care

wow....but one thing for sure..no one aint perfect...

i luv my hubby jus the way he is..nuting less nuting more

LaLa

mIsSiNg My LaDiEs

2008-10-24T14:51:00.000+08:00

haiz...da lamer tk kluar and hang out with my ladies...

rindu plak...lao tak dulu slalu hang out...sampai pagi...

skrg da tak pon...

lao u guys are reading this...hope u guys understand..i wun forget all the fun we had..

tk kire ngan kawan lamer or frens yang baru campur ke..u guys are just great...

so ladies..take care out there...especially to shasha n siti..missing u guys alot...

LaLa

2008-10-22T10:24:00.000+08:00

2008-09-30T08:29:00.000+08:00

haiz...tak lamer lagi hari raye
pade aku cam takde pape gitu...
aniwae...tahun nie aku kai colour purple...hehehehehehe
bf belikkan....same2 colour lak tu....
nnti lao da amek gambar aku post k

updates on family aku
mak aku cam biase...maseh tknk bobual ngan aku
aku tried bobual n buat baik but still dier tetap macam gitu
1st day raye nnti camne agaknyer
family aku plak since adek bradek aku da besar...kiter tk penah mintak maaf towards each other
slalunyer da bangun sumer..amek family potrait then kluar..proceed umah nenek aku
so up till now..mcm rase kaku lao nak mintak maaf....
aku ngah pikir mcm mane nak go thru this mth without any worries
sedare2 aku yg laen plak aku tak tau cam maner...either dorang dpt maafkan aku ke tak
pasal mak aku da bilang perangai buruk aku pat dorang pe
so dorang da pikir aku nie jahat

nnti tengok la mcm maner
takde mood nak rayer..mungkin pasal aku byk sangat pikiran ar
i will kip u guys posted...so...
treasure your family as much as you can
you will never know which is the dae you will lose them....
don make any mistakes..once u are in a wrong....they will never believe you

sbelom aku luper..
aku pon nak ckp ngan korang sumting
hehehehehe......
nak mintak maaf..lao ader silap salah ke selame nie
especially to my frens..
lao aku terlalu kecoh ke...irritating ke..harap maaf k
to all the bikerladies..ride safe...tkmo nak lumbe2 lagi..taubat la..hahahahahahahahaha

kla....JGN LUPER DTG KE RUMAH YEEE
at least ade jugak org yang ingat kan aku..kol je dulu...
takde number..pandai2 korang la...

jus wishing you pepz

LaLa

2008-09-25T12:15:00.000+08:00

to all those motherfuckers yang ingat aku nie pompuan senang pakai

sial nyer jantan..da tak dpt aku abe nak bobual mcm paham

aku senang pakai la..ader penyakit la...sial...

anak haram....ESPECIALLY PADE BUDAK2 PHANTOM

da la korang merepek...penakut!!!bodek takde....

brani bikin blakang...tak brani mengaku.....PUKIMAK

mulut korang brani bobual je...sial...suro mengaku..LARI..

to all the ladies...be careful

bdk2 nie sumer suke buat mulut...

tak dpt je nak buat mulut..number pass ramai...

ckp pompuan nie le buat pakai la..mintak maen kasi la

dont fall into their trap....name korang mesti buruk nyer....

EH ZAKI..KALAU KAO DPT BACE KAN

OR SAPE2 KAWAN2 PUKIMAK DIER DPT BACE NIE KAN

AKU TAKDE HERAN AR KAO NAK BOBUAL BURUK PASAL AKU

ENGKAO STEP BRANI JE..BOBUAL NIE BOBUAL TU

SURO JUMPE LARI...BDK2 KAO AJAR KAO GINI MCM PE??

PENAKUT..JANTAN SUNDAL....

KLAU KAO BRANI KAO DTG JUMPE AKU LA SIAL

ANAK HARAM...

haiz..sedih aku

mcm2 hal...family laen...bdk sial laen....

asal org2 ni sumer mcm gini

takle kasi aku idup senang

pray for me ar people

hope that i can go thru with this life..

i hate it..hate it alot

LaLa

2008-09-24T12:30:00.001+08:00

elllllooooo

bUkE nGaN mEmBeRs SkOLa LaA

2008-09-23T11:01:00.000+08:00

yang ari sunday tu g buke pat lucky plaza..kedai ayam penyet ria

ngan dak2 coral....

yang ade is aku..nazeer...oceh...zarul..zie...kader...alif...yan...

hehehehe..kecoh gak..

ajak syikin abe dier takle make it..lao tak lagi kecoh

mkn2 je...cam biase...yan lambat...sesat..heheheh

cam aku jugak..carik punyer carik....

zie ngan confident nyer dier ckp tingkat 2..padahal..tingkat 1...hahahahahaha

tu pasal la pusing punyer pusing tak nampak...

k2....yang bawah aku da upload gambar..

muke aku nampak gemok sak...da gemok aku...tkpela...i dun give a shit animore...

hehehehe...

gambar2 nie tanks to zie for uploading pat multiply dier..ade gambar2 laen la

check out her webby....www.eternitylady.multiply.com

putih melepak muke aku...hehehehehehe.....jgn touch up byk sgt la laen kali.."winks"

Me n Zie....

the crazeee peepz from sch

its us again....

and again.....

aww...tanks for being there

and again.....

yum2......

the partners....

LaLa

2008-09-18T15:14:00.000+08:00

she ask me to choose between her or khai

how can she do tis!!!

she's torturing me......

she put me in a dilemma.....i cant choose

wat is she tinking???!!!!

yang satu syg aku giler babi

then the other one has given me her love since i was small

fuck siak..aku da mcm2 hal nak kene pikir

mcm2 siak...why cant she jus put aside her ego and understand!!!

its no harm in accepting sumone like khai

pasal tattoo...FUCK.....

da la mls aku nak bobual pasal family

bikin aku sakit hati je sak

haiz..looking forward to the buke puase ramai2

on sat...hehehehe

da lamer tak nampak

yang last aku nampak is art...tu pon terserempak pat bussoroh

lao tak..hmm..haram..tak nampak pon korang

hehehehehehe.......

zie!!!!...make sure jadi sak sat..aku da bersungguh2 nie..hehehehehe

nak tau sumting tak

tadi pagi aku nak g keje

skali ade motor sp4 nie selit pat aku nyer lot

peh mangkuk aku

da terang2 dier angkat motor aku abe letak pat far left

da mcm aku yang selit

sial tul nyer mtr

nanti tak pasal2 kene saman..aku da la tak letak kupon

haiz..ape nak jadi

(jgn amek number plate abe lik 4-d plak...haram)

k la...aku pon da lamer tak merepek2 pat sini..

cam tkde story nak share....ngah takde mood...takle pikir....hahahaha

LaLa

2008-09-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

guess where my hubby bring me for a surprise dinner???
(for ur info..this happened before puase..hehehe..jus get to upload the pics)

huauhauhauhuha........
terkejut seh..didnt expect him to bring me to this place..
i told him once b4 that i nak go to this place
pasal cam kiut gitu
den da sekian lamer kan...(i pon da luper pasal tat tempat)
aleh2 dier ajak..hahahahaha
nak nangis ader
nak ketawe pon ader....
but overall...i enjoy eating there

n i must sae thank you to my hubby for being such a sweetie to have dinner wit me there...

hehehehehe.....

tapikan..biler da sampai saner..aku plak yang malu nak masok
pasal sumer pat saner bdk2..hahahahaha
by we manage to pull it thru..TOGETHER....

tHe PiZzA tHaT wE aTe

ThE MeNu

ThE mEnU (2)

aWwW...sOoO sWiTTTT

nO oNe KnOeS mY fEeLiNg At TaT pT oF TyMe

wEeEeEeE.....THANK YOU

LaLa

2008-09-03T11:44:00.000+08:00

FYI...i deleted my frenster account yesterday

so lao sape2 nak contact me its either here(tag) or hp je la(sape2 yang ade je)

smalam aku da basah kuyup

kene trix...pat ubi tak hujan

aku da masok bedok reservoir je trus lebat

alamak...fed up je sak

terpakse stop pat bus stop...

dah la pat bus stop ramai org...

haiz....degil sgt taknak bwk raincoat...

da terang2 ngah musim hujan..tapi tetap tknk standby raincoat

ape nak jadi.....

kol matair aku...suro bwkkan raincoat...hehehehehe

so sweet..ngah hujan2 pon sanggup hantarkan raincoat

tapikan...raincoat takde sluar...haiz...

lagi satu masalah

da mls nak tunggu lagi aku pon gerak je la...

sluar basah giler seh..ngan kasut2 skali...

ari nie terpakse pakai slipper...kasot basah...

dpt jugak aku buke arnold smalam..hehehehe

maklumla...bulan2 posa nie..mengidam mcm2 bende

aniwae

tahun nie nyer rayer will be a simple one for me

malas pulak nak beraye

lao ikutkan hati..nak g umah nenek aku then umah cik nah

lepas tu alik....takya nak g umah2 laen

haiz..tapi...confirm aku nak kene tagged along g umah2 yang laen

ikot je la...

kla..jumpe di geylang ehk

hahahahahahahaha

LaLa

jUsT wIsHiNg

2008-08-29T16:42:00.000+08:00

to all my muslim frens...

jgn luper nak puase yer....hehehehehehehehe....

last but not least...ihklas from me n hubby

LaLa

2008-08-27T10:24:00.001+08:00

FUCK TO ALL THOSE PPL WHO MAKE ME FUCKING PISSED OFF

ANIONE!!!!

LaLa

2008-08-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

im owaes making him angry over stupid reasons

he is owaes making me feel happy

he is owaes trying to calm the situatioon

but im owae the one with the ego

im sorry baby for all the things that i've done

i luv u and thats the onli thing that will never change..

he knoes wat will cheer me up

thanks baby for all the effort you put in for our relationship

LaLa

2008-08-25T11:44:00.000+08:00

went to abg house last saturdae

tapikan...takde org bilang

sedihkan....i found out myself

nie kalau aku tak gi kan..mesti ader org tu ckp aku taknak campur sedare lagi

padahal dier tak bilang aku pon ader nie function pat umah abg aku

hujan seh ari tu...pegi lambat...

aku g ngan adek n bapak aku.....

nasib baik aku pakai raincoat...dorang 2 tak pakai..hahahahahahaha

basah...tu la..aku ckp hujan taknak dengar

da sampai..da lepas salam..aku relek one corner...

cam takde pape..nak ckp pon tak tau ape nak ckp

mak aku cam biase...buat aku cam aku takde...

nak nangis tengok mak aku pon ade

ape salah aku pat dier sampai dier cam gini

pelawe aku mkn pon tak

ngan org laen dier sebok nak pelawe..ngan aku..anak dier sendiri

dulu mase dier ader masalah ngan abg aku..sebok carik aku

bilang aku mcm2 pasal abg aku...

aku lagi..layankan dier..nasihat dier lagi ader...

skrg...aku tengok dier cam da ok je ngan abg aku

haiz..manusia nie kekadang pelik...

skejap tak suke..skejap suke

mcm ngah pakai topeng gitu......

berbalik pade criter pat umah abg aku

yang 1st pelawe aku..atok aku...

suro aku mkn...then aku ckp..nnti le...

then start..abg aku plak..then aru nenek aku...

sumer aku ckp nnti....

then lepas tu...aku tak sangke..makcik aku plak bobual ngan aku

aku ingatkan sumer da benci sgt pat aku

then makcik sbelah mak aku plak dtg...

dorang lagi..tak pandang aku trus...

aku dpt tau yang last weekend nenek aku ader buat kenduri arwah

aku tak tau pe..aku tak g

then biler pat sane..mak aku nangis2 criter hal aku pat sedare2 aku

klau korang dlm situation aku..ape yg korang rase?

kao tak tau pon ape mak kao bobual pasal kao

ntah btul ke tak sak..aku pressure siol....

then lepas magrib..bapak aku nak balik

dier nak g keje..adek aku tumpang dier balik

mak aku : nnti lepas gugu antar bak, antar matair kao balik..lepas tu antar aku

bapak aku : takde nnti gugu da antar bak balik, boleh amek helmet..nnti lala tumpang mama balik.

mak aku : (ngan muke taknk layan) gugu da antar bak then amek mama

biler aku dengar tu je kan..aku da gif up ngan mak aku

jijik sangat ke aku sampai aku nak antar balik pon dier tknk

mati2 dier nak suro adek aku antar....

lepas 10 min gitu...aku pon angkat kaki jln..

pat dapur aku salam makcik aku ngan kakak ipar aku

then nenek aku plak masok dapur

makcik aku : la...bwk balik lauk sikit la..byk nie

aku : takpela cik sam...susah..tak bwk beg..naek mtr nnti susah

makcik aku : pikul ngan plastic beg la...boleh kan tu

aku : (aku da ketawe)

sekali nenek aku pulak meyampuk

nenek aku : ala...dier bukkan nak balik..nak merayap la tu..hari2 merayap

patah lagi hati aku...da takle tahan

aku pon berambus...

biler mase balik tu..aku ader terpikir...asal dorang benci sgt pat aku

dorang nak tunjuk yang dorang syg

but actual fact...they are finding ways to make me feel so fucking depressed

haiz..tu jela terjadi....

MENTAL TORTURE....tats the phrase to describe on that dae

LaLa

2008-08-12T13:56:00.000+08:00

zie..

tanks alot for tat

tapikan...kao imagine..

aku balik umah je kene membebel

aku balik siang salah

balik lambat salah

ape lagi dorang nak dari aku?

aku stress..pressure...

aku da taknak balik lagi kalau boleh

mak aku....tiap2 hari mesti ader je nak complaint pat bapak aku

bukan salah aku pon jadi salah aku

mcm gini kao ckp dorang sayang aku

asal dorang taknak bunuh aku je?

kan senang...tak payah nak susah2 sakitkan hati aku

pasal lelaki yang mak aku tak suke dorang sanggup buat aku cam gini

ape salah dier zie?

pasal dier ader tattoo nyer pasal?

pasal dier budak jahat?

aku bobual ngan mak aku..dier buat bodoh

mcm aku takde gitu

lepas tu complaint pat bapak aku yang aku taknk bobual ngan dier

ape maksud dier nie?

ape salah aku zie...

dorang nak pikir pasal perasaan dorang

perasaan aku cam maner?

aku try zie..bukan nyer aku tak try

mak aku jus cannot accept

aku rase ape tau zie

dier tknk malu

dier taknak muke dier tu dpt malu

pasal ape..aku nak matair ngan org cam gitu

dier penting kan PRIDE

TOO EGO!!!!

serious ar zie

skrg nie ape aku buat pade dorang sumer salah

aku da takle uat pape

ngan bapak aku skrg pon aku da tkle bobual

ape mak aku da hasut dier pon aku tak tau

hal2 aku sumer dier bilang sedare2 aku sumer

pasal aku kurang ajar ngan dier

da balik umah

padahal

she's making this story A BIG FUCKING ISSUE

sorri la zie..aku konfius ar

aku hope kao tak marah biler aku bobual cam gini

aku reli appreaciate...aku paham ape maksud kao

but i jus cant live animore ar zie

i had enuf

LaLa

..kElUhAn HaTi..

2008-08-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

now i knoe the feeling when sumone u luv is being hated by ur own mum
n now i know how cruel she is..
aku bukan nak buruk2kan name mak aku
aku pon bukan nak kurang ajar
tapi aku cume nak luahkan ape yang aku rase skrg

terus terang aku ckp...kluarga aku tak seperti dulu
aku da tak rapat dengan mak aku lagi..
jus bcoz that sumone i luv ade tattooo
aku tak paham...dier tak kasi peluang..aleh2 trus ckp “aku tak suke”
tak suke takpe...hari2 aku balik mesti dier carik pasal ngan aku
dier ckp pasal lelaki aku nak ilang kluarga...
satu je aku nk ckp ngan dier...saper yang nak ilang saper
aku bobual ngan dier dier buat bodo..aku salam dier dier ckp baru skrg nak salam
aku balik umah penat2 dier carik pasal ngan aku..nak carik kesalahan aku
korang cube bayangkan..mcm maner aku nak balik umah
asal aku balik je mcm gini...

asalah prangai dier mcm gini...
dier lagi criter2 kan hal aku pat saudare2 aku...
sumer nyer pasal keburukkan aku
keburukkan dier buat pat aku ader dier criter??
jadi sumer org ingat aku la taik aku la sial
aku tak kisah saudara2 aku nak benci aku..ataupon nak pulaukan aku..
tapi jgn nenek ngan datuk aku
dorang dari kecik jage aku
aku tak sanggup kehilangan dorang......
aku tak tau apsal ngan nenek aku tadi
muke aku pon da tak pandang
ape dosa aku buat pat dier
dlm diam2 pon dier tau pasal kesah aku ngan mak aku
biler aku tanyer saper bilang
dier ckp dier tau sendiri...
haiz..aku nie bukkan dak2 lagi
saper lagi yang nak bilang klau tk mak aku

skrg baru aku paham asal org bunuh diri kerana keluarga
aku rase itu la jalan yang mudah...
da takde erti lagi dlm idup klau org yang kao syg dan hormat da jauh dari kao
hidup da mcm sial
takde makne takde kasih sayang takde segale2 nyer

aku rase biler aku da takde lagi dlm dunia baru dorang nak sedar
selagi aku maseh idup..selagi tu mak aku akan carik pelbagai cara nak susahkan idup aku
dier takkan bahagia selagi aku maseh ngan boifren aku nie...
dier nak aku kawin ngan org yang kaya dengan harta dunia
yang ade krete..umah besar...boleh kasi aku kesenangan
tapi dier luper...
dier boleh kasi aku kesenangan..tapi boleh ke dier kasi aku kebahagiaan...
aku tetap ngan pilihan aku...
kiter nie cume merancang....

sorrila geng kalau aku nie pedih2...takle angkat ar...
satu je aku nak tinggalkan pesan...
idup kiter nie sementara je
klau la aku pegi dulu
bilang ngan mak aku...
walau ape bende sekali pon dier buat pat aku
aku tetap sayangkan dier...aku takkan luper jase2 yang dier buat utk aku

sekian

LaLa

2008-08-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

i cant believe it

im still stuck in the office

its raining!!!n im stuck!!!

haiz..aniwae..jus waiting for the rain to stop

but dunnoe till wat tyme

when in tyme like this..i will remember my RAINCOAT

hahahahahaha.....i owaes haf this habit of not bringing it along when im out

coz i owaes haf this thinking...ala..takkan hujan la!!

but i can be wrong at tymes...

aniwae...

HAPPY 9 MTHS ANNIVESARY TO MARINA N TAUFIK!!!

hope u haf a lasting relationship

and oso..hingga ke akhir hayat

sampai la ke anak da cucu

mesti kiut kan biler kiter da digelar NENEK

hehehehehe...da tak payah pakai make tebal2 pasal nak tutup imperfections

kla...im still waiting

LaLa

2008-08-05T17:02:00.000+08:00

jus wanna sae
no matter wat happens
i wan u to knoe that no one can ever replaced u in my heart
tak kire ape dorang nak kate
dorang nak kutuk ke..nak ketawekan ke
i dun care..asalkan u ader
n can owaes support me whenever i need u the most
we been thru alot and i taknak pasal org laen kiter pisah
muahmuamuamuamua

LaLa

aPiZ bDaE sUrPrIsE

2008-08-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

oUr BiRtHdAe BoI

jus as i promised...

the pics taken at t3 secret recipe

celebrating apiz bdae.....

kecoh la....missing them lotz

kirekan....da lamer tak jumper dorang

then tat dae cam terubat rindu...hehehehehehehe

tHe RiDeRs

where's my teeth??!!!

senyum ler

aww.....

the big present from q

Last but not least...jus wanna wish apiz a wonderful life with siti

insyallah...semoga panjang umor..murah rezeki

jgn bwk motor gilera kao tu mcm setan

hahahahaha

LaLa

2008-08-04T09:21:00.000+08:00

went to swensens for our dinner on last saturdae

yum2....i recommed their chili fish pasta

i give a 9/10.....sedap giler..

boifee ate spagetti too..tapikan..tak tau name ape

hahahahahahahaha

too long and complicted....

and for desert...EARTHQUAKE.....

nak amek gambar..skali da abez mkn plak..huahuahuahuhauhaa

ader satu indian couple sitted just behind us...

they left without paying

mcm siak je

nampak je org ader class..but duh......takde duit nak bayar

bierl dabez mkn...yang lelaki tu step nak isap rokok..

then biler line clear je..the lady bangun and they both walked away

at first kiter pon tak pikir pape la...but after the waiter gave us a bill(which we didnt ask)

then they realised the couple sitted behind us left w/o paying

haiz.....nak uat camner...nk makan mahal..but dun wan to pay

kla...tu je nak share2..nnti lao free i post oics on apiz bdae which we celebrated at t3

LaLa

2008-08-02T02:26:00.000+08:00

yesterdae..sumone surprised me!!

hahahaha...he turned up at my workplace unexpectedly...

terkejut jek..aleh2 muncul pat tempat parking motor

abe dier lagi ader hati nak sembunyikan my bike so tat i will be panicked

tak baik kan.....hahahahaha

da park motor bwk blk dier then i tumpang dier plak

hehehehe....kiter g MAK'S PLACE

teringin sgt nak mkn tomyan soup

besar plak tu bowl dier

heheheheehhehehehehehehehe

terpakse mkn sampai abez.........nasib baik ader org tu tlg abezkan

cian dier...perut da mcm tong sampah...asal aku tak abez je..dier abezkan

ingatkan nak jln2...but im too tired seh

yesterdae was reli a damn bz dae for me

tak g lunch pon

rabakz kan...yang laen suker2 g lunch aku pat opis ngah terkial2 abezkan keje

haiz...nasib2....

k2...saje2 nak post2...

cam boring gitu kan blog aku

huahuauhaua

just wait for future updates k

maner la tau aku nak kawin ke

nak tunang ke

hehehehehe...bace je......

LaLa

2008-07-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

i once saw an accident involving a lady pillion and a rider

the guy was riding spark 135.....and the lady pillion was damn sexy

she is wearing a short dress....kirekan sexy abez nyer ar

but....when the rider skids..yang lady pillion tu tercampak

and to make it worse..dier terseret pat road

imagine her legs.....all covered in blood....

and the guy suffered onli minor abrasions.....

the moral is...especially to all ladies

tak kire rider or the pillion

u wouldnt knoe when its goin to happen

it will happen when u least expected it

memang la kiter sebagai pompuan nak sexy nak glamour

but why take the risk?

da tau kiter nie naek motor

takde cover..bukan cam krete.....

biler jatuh lagi2 pat road..teruk tu

dari lawar trus tak lawa langsung

which one u prefer...

so..its jus an advice from me

kesian tengok pompuan tu

i dunnoe wat happen to her now

but wat i knoe kaki dier da rabak sak

lao dier tak tau malu kaki gitu maybe she will jus wear skirts

tak kesah ape org nak ckp

she have to put on pants sampai luke2 pat kaki dier tu baik

haiz......

yang tyme aku accident

nasib baik sluar

lao tak..kaki aku mintak kene scrap je

but i owaes have this thinking

tak semestinyer naek motor nak kene pakai sexy

think of the our safety

tak kire pillion or rider

tetap naek motor....lao pape jadi..we never knoe

tu pasal i owaes wear jeans..jus to protect whatever i can

skrg nyer driver pat road pon bukan le pecaye sgt

maen masok lane org je

tak kesah pasal org..just think for themselves

lao da terlanggar..nanti mcm2.....ckp kiter nyer salah

mcm sial......

ckp pasal motor kan

ari tu aku nampak pompuan noe bwk wave

siak je..dier pakai tube ngan sluar hot pants pendek

kiwak...p-plate lagi

mlm2 plak tu

tak sejuk ke?hahahahahahaha

tak tau la kan..masing2...aku saper nak ckp pasal pakaian dier

asal kan dier bahagia.....

okla...mls nak membebel panjang2

jus last advice to all

bwk pelan2 k

takmo race2 pat road

lao nampak each other

tegur la..tkmo muke cam sial

tak baik....

aku pon nak mintak maaf la kan

lao tersinggung perasaan sape2...takde niat pon

jus stating what i feel is right

and lagi satu

maaf ler lao aku campur english and melayu

omputih aku pon bukkanyer hebat sgt...hahahahaha

LaLa

2008-07-29T15:07:00.000+08:00

aku tau la kao ade lesen krete

tak payah nak menunjuk nunjuk

lao kao kate aku jeles...hahahahahahahahaha........klakar nye kao

aku nak jeles ape hal

kao ader krete..bagus la.....

tak payah nak pekik2...

da mcm pompuan ape gitu.....

haiz..manusia nie kadan2 complicated

dorang nak tunjukkan dorang lagi hebat dari kiter

aku tau apsal kao nak tunjuk2

pasal kao takde lesen moto kan

hahahahahaha

naek moto lagi glamour dari krete kan

hahahahahaha..tu pasal kao jeles

hahahahahahahahahaha

klakar ar org2 gini

HATE BITCHES WHU'S TRYING THEIR FUCKING BEST TO MAKE PPL JEALOUS

AND IF U R READING THIS...(kalau kao terasa la kan)

LAO KAO NAK CKP PASAL KAO ADER KENDERAAN

AKU PON ADE PE....WALAUPON TAK SEMAHAL KRETE KAO
AT LEAST AKU DABEZ BAYAR

DA LA P-PLATE..NK EKSYEN NGAN AKU

AND FOR UR INFO

LAO KAO RASE AKU JELES....BLAH LA....

ORG CAM AKU TAK PENAH RASE JELES PASAL BENDE2 TAIK CAM GINI

NIE GAME BUDAK2 TAIK CAM KAO JE SLALU BIKIN

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

LaLa

2008-07-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

i find it hard to have a peaceful sleep nowadaes

wonderin why..kip waking up in the middle of the night thinking its oreadi tomorrow

been hard to kip my beauty slp....dark circles starts to appear

eeeee............

hahaha

aniwae

went to the UNDERWATER WORLD yesterdae...wit my boifey

its damn hot i must sae...

drop off at vivo city..n we took the tram to sentosa

(iszit called a tram??!!)

the first thing that we looked at when we reached is the map

hahahaha..i cant denied it..its been quite sO long since i last went

macam tourist sak kite....tanyer sini tanyer sane

hahahahahaha....

we managed to ask around and found ourselves taking the blue line bus

packed giler

byk bangse 'K'(if u noe wat i mean)

bau sak...phew...cam nak muntah

pening aku...

reached the place and the entrance fee was $19..90 per/pax

nuting much..jus seeing the fishes....one round then tats it..

took pictures of ourselves which cost $15 per photo

but we took the keychains instead. its 2 for $15

after spending abt 2 hours there..we went for a ride

its called the LUGE RIDE

wow.....hahaha...had total fun!!!

although there's a no racing sign..but wat the heck

i was racing thru with my boifren

hahahahahahahaha......

after the ride down..its time to fly up

we took the skyride back...tinggi giler

in summary...I HAF LOADS AND LOADS AND LOAD OF FUN!!!!!

tanks luv for taking me there

appreaciate it much

LaLa

hahaha

2008-07-26T07:38:00.000+08:00

hey all
just created a new blog..
gonna pour out my feelings here
feel free to read all my post
i have no secrets to hide
everything that had happen to me will be kip updated
jus tagged me if u wan to advice or share something wit me..
i will not be offended if sumone out there have any grudges on me
i cant b bothered wit those whu tink their life is perfect

kip that tagging cuming

LaLa